Am not sure i know what am on about. Anyways hope i made sense?
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| sexy cofer |
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| Crazy dust |
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| Notice the diff? my nickname was ''water bottle'' |
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| we must sha be fine :) |
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| Body Art |
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| My camp crew |
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| love this |
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| and this |
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| Camp fire night |
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| Last day |
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| I got so blackkkk :( |
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| World Aids day |
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| Learnt nu make up skills |
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| Junk in my trunk ;) |
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| Meet the |
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| My sisters...yh d youngest is the tallest :( |
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| Bukky(hair stylist), me, Teju (the make up artist) and oreofe |
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| Birthday Girl :D |
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| One of d fine sisters...(my guest writer) |
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| Girlfriends from school |
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| My Unofficial twin.. we look alike yeah? |
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| *Lips Sealed* :D |
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| Feeling like one celeb... In my mind o |
The highlight of my day were the calls and messages, i totally appreciate every single person that wished me a happy birthday from their heart and i honestly hope next year would be better.
~L~u~k~i~n~a~
So i'm a graduate (Although some people stubbornly think otherwise) and i'm sitting at home waiting for that national excercise that keeps you 'busy' for one year, 2yrs ago i woulda been excited but sadly nowadays you are not even sure if the next guy is wired under his cloths, i'm super scared of posting and one mind doesnt want me to 'work' it, if the worse happens i'ld be posted to Borno state (God forbid) and i'ld be forced to bring out my very looong legs (Ask Tosin Akibo) so till then i have anti-boredom options but i've not gotten myself to get up from my bed (So much for anti-boredom) here is my list.
- Driving School (A girls gotta learn how to drive abi?)
- Weekend Class (This shouldnt even be here because my A+ class is always boring)
There you have it, i'm sure you were expecting a looonng list but its had to find LEGAL things to do, legal in the sense that when i say it my mum would not scream ''O tun ti fe lo ba okunrin'' or ''you don't do that a girl from a good home won't do such'' and my dad say with a frown on his face 'Where are you going to? What is happening there?' So till i find i'm stuck!!
So i'm turning 21 *Yippee* on the 26th of this month, my parents decided to celebrate it for me, the first since i turned 1, i was always getting the don't-worry-when-you-are-10 speech then it became 15 then 20 and i gave up! So i tried my luck this year and BAM he said ''yes, u deserve it''*windecking* i rented a hall already and its gonna be the 30th of July buh i'm not sure anymore about this. As much as i love attention, i don't like the spotlight, i'm planning the whole thing sha but secretly in one corner of my mind, i don't want again but its too late to back out i guess, so i'm just gonna keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best. :D
I'ld try my best to finish everything i've started and continue writing, Now i feel normal. Feels good to be back too.
He sat up in bed partly covered with the duvet, turned to her; the stranger, she mumbled something but his mind was everywhere but there 'when did it get to this? So I was cold yesterday I know, but why is she suffering in silence? Why can't she say something? Maybe then I would let this guilt go and confess or not? What she doesn't know won't hurt right? But I'm not a good actor neither am i sure she has an idea already but why is she not talking?' something that sounded like a shout brought him back to reality 'are you here at all? I've been asking you a question for the past 10mins haba! are you going home tonight?' defensively he answered 'please don't start, what night have I not gone home? Don't ask me such anymore' with that he stood up dressed up and left the room without saying anything else.
"Can't you see the writing on the wall? Or you have just chosen to deny it? He has started keeping late nights, he doesn't even talk to you, the loving part of your marriage is gone, and one good thing is he helps out with the baby. But seriously simi don't you see it? He is cheating on you". All what her friend said to her earlier in the day kept replaying in her head, with tears rolling down her cheeks she asked herself 'but why??'
Another night, a familiar stranger, he lay down beside her contemplating if waking her up was good idea, No! She decides to suffer in silence, then good for her, I won't up and confess; no way! For her not to notice, it probably means she doesn't care anymore right? So why should I? With all that thought he slept off.
''I really need to talk to you'' she said, when I get back from work, I'm late. ''nowadays you are always late even your home coming, so today should not be an exception, so can we talk?'' He nodded aii
I just wanted to ask what's wrong with us, what have I done to deserve all the treatment you are giving me? Recently you've been coming home late from work, I noticed the drinking too and you don't even talk to me not to even talk of touching me, what happened? Or are you seeing someone else?
He sat there his face in his hands, when he heard her speak with the hurt in her voice he knew, I guess it is time to let it all be over with that he said......
So i've been writing this story since forever (by forever i mean like 3weeks) not because i dnt have what to write but i could not just get to understand d idea behind cheating and obviously i still don't, so i decided i would ask, instead of just keeping my story in draft.....
So if you are reading this, use the comment box and give your reasonS... Why you think people cheat in relationships. Thanks :)
~L~u~k~i~n~a~
In my life, i've had so called friends betray me but this one i wanna write about is the most recent ok here it goes....
She was the newest 'new girl' in class (That time my school would admit students even a week before exam x_x) and she had this don't-come-near-me-i-break-bones look, i just disliked her in the beginning cos of that but how we got close must be in some pages of the history book by now, The point it we got really close, i introduced her to my clique then we all became one big happy-'anko' (Same cloth)-wearing-family until she put a dagger at my back when i wasnt looking :(
'Be careful of the people you call your friends this girl was just talking crap about you because you passed last semester' was what another classmate told me when we resumed, It wasnt supposed to be a big deal but because it was from her and to think she was all smiling and telling me 'aww tomi i saw your result and you did very well' i was broken, from then on i got really quiet in class, i generally became suspicious of everyone around me (i still suffer from this disease) i could not get myself to forgive her (still can't)
Now at the end of four years, i just noticed that its her way of life, that kind of person that want their ''friends'' to always be behind (and do anything to make it possible) so they can feel superior, that kind of person who would always do over sabi in class and still and NEVER WILL be on a First class, that kind of person that just thinks of 'now' and never what would happen outside the four walls of the school, That kind of person that just does 'la cram la pour' for exam and still don't know jack about their course of study. So, if you are reading this and its painting your picture, No be by First class oh opps ma bad you are not even on a 1st class and remember the law of karma - what goes around would definatly come around so change, but wait even when you change be very afraid because your 'around' is coming soonest....
*Loosing the mean look* Honestly i really wanna let go, learn how to trust people again, forgive and forget but its hard any ideas???
~L~u~k~i~n~a~
I walked into the salon feeling all fly with myself and budgeted money in ma pocket told the girl 'i need to paint ma nail, i want red on ma toes and black on ma fingers' in ma head am thinking ok this shouldnt be more than 100bucks buh max 150bucks, she finished so i don't feel too familiar i ask how much is it? then the shocker '300naira' My head is not as composed as body WTH??? When did the price go up like that?? Ofcourse i could not tell her to clean it, i reluctantly pay.
I went to another salon and am hearing -N- 500 just to retouch ma hair kilode?? No be to just put relaxer wash? And u know as an adopted Ijebu girl (iBlame mumsi), i went to where i just had to pay 150. When did it all go up??
I seriously feel outta place, I suddenly got tired of everything School, project, home most especially running annoying errands like last night mumsi's phone was directly in front of popsi and i was sitting at the other end of the living room and i hear 'come and check who is calling your mum' seriously dad??? *sighs* and if i don't answer now, i might just be on ma way to MFM -Again!
I'm at this point where i just wanna take a back seat and zone out! Please wake me up in JUNE!
Recently i've been wondering 'what if i die tomorrow?' don't get me wrong oh the thought of death scares the crap outta me, buh sometimes i just wanna think about the inevitable u know? Seriously i think everyone at some point should ask themselves this question.
School resumes tomorrow and as usual i am not anywhere near ready, am scared kinda because this is the grand finale of the 'BSc Journey', I'm thinking about what to do to myself after school, i just know i need at least a 3months job, so here is me again advertising maself oh, gimmie job if you have oh! anything legal and decent sha!
Ok have come to the end of my random talk. I still don't feel better though.
Lemmie just listen to the preaching.
P.S: i got the stylish and versatile award from 2 bloggers, i think i finally got that '7 things about me' list completed, so i'ld do ma part later today :)
~L~u~k~i~n~a~
We all watch Naija movies where there is a family then one be-witched relative that lives with them and attacks one of the children right? Well in this movie, i was the attacked child, what was always their reason for the attack anywayz??
I knew something happened to me when i was younger, i knew the story but not all of it. I was in the car with my dad yesterday and we talked about my short-memoryIsh, then he told me all the story.
I was about a year old, then there was a blue dress too, the one that i always looked beautiful and smart in and u know how children would be when they love a dress and always want to be in it? Well mine wasnt just LOVE there was a spiritual LoVe to it and when i wore it, i fell sick, it continued till i was hospitalized aint that what they wanted?? But the lorD won't lemmie die can i hear halleluyah?? Bottom line God saved me and the girl was exposed and i was dumber i guess!
Ok, years and years later that was when the 'dumber' theory came about, i had changed secondary schools twice, at first i changed because i repeated a class, wow! Does it not feel good to let that out *phew* this is one part of ma life i've been ashamed of, not because i did repeat but cos i'm d only one in ma family to actually repeat a class and i just remember that day clearly and the tears plus mumsi's shout (if you know ma mum, u'ld understand)
P.S: All my friends from duduyemi this is the reason why i never said why i left ma previous school.
Ok dumb theory, i went to mayflower and it seemed to ma folks that ma grades were going down the drain, ma mum said in her ever present modakeke accent 'a o ya olodo ni ile wa o (we are not 'olodos' in our family), we are going to MFM'
i thought it was a joke till my dad called me, ma dad is not the Over-Churchy type like mumsi, for him to have supported the deliverance i knew it was serious this was how the speech went: 'Tomilola, has your mum told you about the deliverance? *insert nod* do you remember what happened to you when you were little? *insert nod* (at this time i did not have the full memory) well because of that and since we don't know why you are not passing well, we think you should go and try it out, please cooperate with them *insert nod*' then i got a hug!!
Altho i did not complete ma fasting sentense but it was worth it i guess, i Aced ma waec and i've been doing well academically since then, well maybe because i was forced to believe that was my solution but who knows the end justifies ba??
I know the title was alil too dramatic well is that not why we are here???
~L~u~k~i~n~a~
