Confessions of a Horny Virgin: Prelude

Hello Everyone,

Remember  me? From Blue Peril? Yes! I'm adriana, the shoe addict that ran away  that disappeared after one post. Its good to be back oh and this time, I am staying.
I'm a virgin and i've been so all my life - duuh - *Insert blond moment here* x_x
She has tagged me "Horny" Who am I to complain? Only this doesn't make a very good second first impression.

I've given you 'gist' of the first time I shared a kiss with a boy at the age of 16, and how that started the journey of saying goodbye to my innocence. I decided to think back, because knowing me, that can't be the real genesis. The story won't be complete if I didn't say this one here.

You see 'Blue Peril' wasn't exactly my first kiss, but was my first kiss that I knew what was happening. Lets go to the real genesis shall we?

**P.s: I want to try not to mention names and location as these stories are real, to protect their privacy. Cool? 
Cool**

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2003 Location: Boarding House.

Life as a 13 year old in a boarding school for the first time wasn't easy at all. From constant illness to bullying mates to funny/weird 'spiritual' happenings in the girls hostel.

I was the new girl for a while and I was beautiful (That much I knew) got attention from boys and you know how the boys that like you tend to yab you alot because they don't want it to be obvious they do?
I got alot of yabs that made my life in Jss2 a misery(It was that serious) Only after leaving I found out that those boys actually like me. Sigh.

Sooner than later I was paired with a boy that everyone teased me about, they even gave us a joined botanical name - don't ask- You will think this is about him right? No.

Its another him, my house master, he was also the English teacher at the time. I fell ill alot and all the hostel staff knew me.

"You're sick again, Omo mummy"
Since we didn't have phone we would talk to our parents through the house masters. Mr O was really cool, as the not-so-strict one of the 2 house masters, everyone liked him and was fond of him - to the best of my knowledge -

Memory from then is really blur and I can't exactly remember alot of details but Occasionally I would go collect hot water from his lodge to take a bath, the reason why I did that is lost on me right now.
This faithful day as always I was feeling ill and I went over to boil water.

I'm sure by now you are wondering why we didn't have a house mistress, well we did but her lodge was inside the boys hostel (Who does that anyways?) and she was the closest thing to a witch i knew at the time, always moody and so NOT accommodating, so our house masters were the go-to people most of the time.

I walked into the lodge that had a living area, 2 rooms, a kitchen and bathroom. The scanty living area had a carpet on the floor, white sitting chairs, a table and Tv.

Mr O opened the door for me and I complained about my feverish feeling, Like in response to my complain he moved closer and pecked me on my lips

"You are really ill, your lips are cold" he said as he stepped away from me, my young innocent mind didn't make anything of it and with the way he was quick to dismiss it like it wasn't a big deal. I didn't mention it to anyone afterall it wasn't a big deal.

He did it again, This time he really kissed me, I wasn't ill. I didn't say anything to anyone about it until now.

Then I heard a certain senior talking about how he pushed her on his bed when she was alone in his room, then my eyes opened and I was too sure that approaching every situation from an innocent perspective was going to put me in trouble some day.

It did.

Find out how on Friday will talk about the activation of my sensual and sexual desires.

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Introducing: Confessions of a Horny Virgin

I'm done.
I. am. Tired.
I know this is supposed to be an introduction, but, Can I rant for a while? Ok, Thanks. When you decide to be a virgin well more like when your mother threatens you to not get pregnant.  Those that have gone before do not exactly tell how it goes in reality.

The lonely nights.
The longing to be held.
The unnecessary baths you have take.
That annoying run just to expel some tension, and the unfortunate fall into masturbation( for some)
Nope, This isn't exactly why I'm tired. I am okay with finding out about stuff right in the middle and adjusting quickly. Why am I tired? #TeamUnrealisticV
We all go ahead to be the all-prime-and-proper-Virgins-till-I-marry-Its-all-roses-through-the-process Arrgghhhh!

I've always wanted to have an honest realistic conversations about different stuffs, I really appreciate knowing that I am not in a struggle on my own and also encouraging people around me, but I've found out no one really wants to talk about it. I was chatting with a friend a while ago and he said "Some girls just like to portray themselves as superhumans, so they don't get judged. But it would be good to know that you can talk about it and know you are not in the phase alone"

Maybe i've not looked well, but I only see people say #TeamVirgin and why they decided to stick to the route and "No one says its going to be east, but its worth it" But then, What about the koko of the gist? :(

Anyways, Why else am I here? To bring it to you as it is noni :) Well, Not me exactly Remember Adriana? From Blue Peril? You can check out the post :)

For those that just started following this blog (Please, tell me there are new followers -___-) I featured her sometime last year and she just disappeared, But now? she is back and excited about this and wants to share her journey as a young Christian Virgin as a form of encouragement to others out there to know that we not alone in the process.

The series will start tomorrow and continue for the next couple of weeks (depending on how much she wants to share) and if you are out there and want to share something about your journey as a Virgin and how you've dealt with it, your entries are welcome mail me [tomi.akibo@gmail.com] or you just need someone to talk to please, mail me. Would love to read from you.

Drop your anonymous  comments. Thanks.

See you tomorrow :) *Takes a back seat*

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Photography: Signs

...And wonders

Hello Everyone,

This way?

I want to Bring to you Pictures from my collection so far.  Today we are about street sign. I hope you enjoy it! :)

Your limit

Which way?

UK on the street.. 

Left Broken

No parking

Yago (Give way)

Double blue 

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Attributes of God By Priscilla Shirer

Hi Everyone,

As a Follow-up for a post from earlier this week, here is Priscilla talking about the attributes of God. When I stumbled on this video, I played and played it over again and even did the stop-rewind-thingy so I could get the lyrics X_X, Just so I can get it down into my spirit and affirm myself of who God is to me. You should listen to it.

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#ThankfulThursday

Hello Everyone,

Its another Thankful Thursday. WHOOOPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here is a list of what I am Thankful for this week

~ Romans 12: 2
~ My Mum
~ Work
~ Talent
~ Open doors
~ Smell of books
~ Green Tea
~ Toilets
~ MasterCard
~ On-line shopping
~ Sope
~ Sammy
~ Truth
~ Food
~ Christmas Decorations
~ Working Hotel Wifi (Halleluyah)
~ Madam Salt and her little suprises
~ Testimonies of/for others


What are you thankful for this week? Share, Share, Share!!! Thanks :)

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Spoken Words: I will wait for you by Janette

Since I started listening to @ilola do spoken words, I've been drawn into it. I went spoken words hunting on You tube and now,my absolute favourite is Janette the P4CM group!

This is "I will wait for you"

So it seemed, that it was cool for everyone to be in a relationship but me..
So I took matters into my own hands… and ended up with him
Him who displayed the characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THIEF
So.. why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,
Cause it was ME who let him in…
Claiming we were “just friends”..
It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!
I was gonna make him ‘The One’..
You know… I was tired of being alone,
And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,
Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride..
A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the wait!
So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.
He had a… form of Godliness… but not much..
But hey, hey I can change him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me
Arteries so clogged with MY will, it blocked HIS Will from flowing through me
So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
That flat lined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back
Through my ignorance He sawed,
Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest
TO transplant Psalm 51:10
A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!
So now I fully understand,
Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,
How much I NEED to wait… for You.
See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..
Cause in the beginning was the Word
And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –
Which meant NOTHING.
He couldn’t even pray when I NEEDED him to
Asking him to fast would be absurd!
So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word…
But I know You.. ♥
You were already praying for me
Even never having met me
Let me assure you, I will wait for you.
I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you
To appease my boredom or to quench my thirstiness I have for attention
And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.
You know…. He ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?
His first name LUKE,
His last name WARM.
I, I won’t settle for false companionship
I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,
Attempting to find some closeness,
But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held
Cause ♫”all I gotta do is Say” No!
NO more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’
Passing winks & buying drinks,
I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!♫
Who flirts with the ideology of,
‘Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’
NO more.
I’ll stay in my bed… alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you
He won’t even come close,
Our fingers won’t even interlock
We won’t even exchange breath
Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.
I will no longer get weighed down,
From so-called friends & family talks,
About the concern for my biological clock
When I serve the Author of Time.
Who is NOT subject to time,
But I’M subject to Him,
He has the ability to STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…
So if we could role play,
You would be Abraham & I would be Sara
Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer
I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,
Made up of your rib Adam!
And once we meet, like electrons
I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.
We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.
We were all created in His image,
But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.
If I were to explain what you looked like,
You would have to look like a star,
A son of the Son..
I would gain energy simply from the light on me.
I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you ♥
And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,
Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,
Your faith will remind me of Abraham,
Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,
Your heart for God will remind me of David,
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,
And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
But Your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.
But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,
Cause His word will be tatted all over your heart.
And you will know me, and you will find me,
Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.
Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,
Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.
I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.
But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth
Only if you should see fit…
I desire Your will above mine,
So even if you call me to a life of singleness,
My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.
YOU are the greatest love story ever told,
The greatest story ever known
You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness
And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business
Oh, I will always be Yours!
And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning…
More than the watchmen wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT ♥

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Do you Know who your father is?

"I can't understand God by feelings. I understand God by what the word says about him. He is everything the word says he is" ~ 

Hello Everyone!

How are you doing this week? Today I am talking about our heavenly father.  
I went through a time that I was aware of the fact that I didn't know who God was and really I know its a point we get to in our walk with him. 

Alot of us want to get to know God through experience (And we can learn somethings through different experiences in life) but the number 1 way to know God is through his word. We listen and digest people tell us about who God is to them and we are lazy to get into the word to let God reveal himself to us personally.

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I am going to highlight a few ways that God has made himself real to me;

God is the word

"In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God and the word was God" John 1:1 

God is Love

"He who does not love has not become acquainted with God [does not and never did know Him], for God is love." 1 John 4:8

God Is The Almighty 

 I wrote once about how I asked God one day "Who are you?" and the next day a friend sent me the Bible verse Amos 4:13 For, lo, he that formeth the mountains, and createth the wind, and declareth unto man what is his thought, that maketh the morning darkness, and treadeth upon the high places of the earth, The Lord, The God of hosts, is his name.
going through different translations and one says;
 "This is his name: the Lord God Almighty!" another says "His name is Yahweh, Lord God All-Powerful"

In the Old testament, they knew a different side of God and Jesus came to reveal the Loving side of God. Thats why He so loved us that he gave his only son [John 3:16] 

Now, In light of that Love, God wants to have a relationship with us. At a time I always thought when something was going wrong God was somehow punishing me for a sin I had committed, But I got in the word and saw what the new covenant says 

"... Their sins and Iniquities I will remember no more" [Hebrews 8:12] and all he wants to do is take care of his children [Matt 6:31-33] 

Are you in this walk with God and ever felt like you need to know him more? Get in the Bible - Its filled with revelation knowledge of who he is - and when you get familiar with the father through his word and begin to walk in the light of who he is to you, your 'blue days' will be over because you will know you are not alone and you will feel safe and secure in his Love.

He also calls us in 1 Peter 5:7 to cast ALL of our cares on him because he cares for us. Lets abandon ourselves in his love, wake us everyday with the awareness that God loves us and not worry. 

Listen to this song; (Its a form of prayer) I surrender - Hillsong

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#ThankfulThursday ~ Its Thanksgiving!!

1, 2 White as snow
3, 4 Itchy to the toes
5, 6 sore to the knees
7, 8 curled to the ground
9, 10 Ash on the temple

He walks by, and 10 voices lifted up saying
"Jesus, master, have mercy on us"
With compassion in his eyes
He did

"Go, shew yourself unto the priest"
Looking confused amongst themselves
"That's all?"
"Go, That's all" with that ever present smile.

As they left
1,2 Can you see this?
3,4 Soft and clean
5,6 I can stretch
7,8 Glowing skin
9, 10 My sore is gone.

Joyfully
1..
2..
3..
4..
5..
6..
7..
8..
9..
They skipped away,
10, strange to the land,
Skipped back to Jesus
fell on his knees
"There is no way I can just turn away,
I have to come back and say Thank you Lord"

[Luke 17:11-19] Story of the 10 lepers.

Yaaaay!!! Its another Thursday and we are staying Thankful, plus it Thanksgiving (Whoop Whoop). Here is a list of 10 things I am thankful for this week.

~ BIS Expiring
~ Music
~ Bible
~ Lightroom
~ Rice
~ Indomie Noodles
~ Black shoes
~ Creativity
~ Faith
~Joyce Meyer

Share with us, What are you Thankful for?


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When God steps in

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We strive and strive for a lot of things all to no avail, we stumble, fall then rise again and become philosophers dishing out quotes, as much as there is nothing wrong with failing with the way the world works, because we live in a world that people go on and on about "I'm a Hustler" but I serve a God that says "There remaineth a  rest for the people of God" [Hebrew 4:9] and we should "Labour to enter into the rest [Hebrews 4:11]

Even before I listened to Joseph Prince [Click to listen to the sermon] hammer it in my head or even knew it was in the Bible, I always knew it that hustling as a child of God just didn't make sense to me. Ever heard of the daughter of a king hustling? (Not the prodigal one) I thought so too.

When I was about to finish NYSC I was speaking to a guy that had passed out a batch before me, he kept saying that I should be ready to hustle that It wasn't easy, I vividly remember telling him that as for me oh, I won't hustle he just Yimu-ed at me.

When I got home from NYSC, My mother and father kept knocking it in my head (as it looked like I wasn't doing anything about my joblessness) to apply for Jobs and what not, I really wasn't doing much - really I had no idea what the heck I was doing, but I just knew down in my spirit that I won't be hustling and worrying over getting a Job because I have a father that is "I AM" Ever wondered why that name seems incomplete? Yes, because He is what you need him to be. I digress.

See, I got it in my spirit, even before I found where it was in the Bible, that the daughter of a king doesn't hustle, she's got everything taken care of by her father and thats exactly what God has done, remember "It is finished" DONE! Paid in Blood!!

I know I said "When God steps in" but really it should be "When you've realised God has stepped in" then you realise how much further you can go. Are you weak? Its not a strength problem, Its an ignorance problem.
Every problem is an Ignorance problem.
"And you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free" [John 8:32] and who or what is the truth? [John 14:6] I am the way, the truth and the life. I have stepped in.
God spoke to Moses at the red sea why do you cry to me, speak to the people, move forward, stretch your rod (paraphrased) [Ex 14:15-16] God had already stepped in, He just needed to realise it.

Another example (The one that made me write this) I found out is Elijah in 1 kings 19:4 "while he HIMSELF went a day’s journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors"

Just one day and he was ready for his life to be taken from him, notice that God didn't reply his request and he just stepped in, on a second thought Elijah realised that God was there If not he won't be speaking to him right?
But when he started his journey "He HIMSELF WENT" but God doesn't want that, Elijah came to an end of himself and God in his Love and mercy showed himself. In the next verse the angel visited him and said "Arise and eat; because the journey is too great for thee but its not for God"
Halleluyah!!!
The next verse states that he went for 40days and 40 nights in the strength of that meat, One day in his strength (Hustling) and 40 days and 40 nights in the strength of Gods meat (Rest) Now imagine Elijah acknowledging from the beginning of his journey that God had stepped in, won't he have saved himself the emotional stress?

No detail in the Bible is misplaced - Its getting evident to me by the day - there is no coincidence with God, every little detail is as good as the truth as every BIG miracle recorded in the word.

I'm getting over the too-good-to-be-true phase of learning of the Gospel of Jesus and about the Grace of God. Unlearning religious ways, Believing and walking in the truth and the holy spirit has been my ever present help. There are days I cry because unlearning is not easy but then I lean into the comforter and he comforts me.

Yes! There remaineth a rest for the people of God and he wants us to live in the consciousness of that rest and live our lives from that restful place, that why he says labour to enter into that rest - this doesn't mean being lazy or not getting a Job or whatever anyone wants to pervert the word of God as, It simply means acknowledge his presence and do your work in his strength.

Its a state of knowing the truth in the word of God, where you are not trying to earn nothing. You are just basking in the euphoria of being a child of the most high (not a care in the world) doing your Job in the knowledge, raising your kids in the knowledge, attending classes in the knowledge, basically, going through life with the acknowledgement of the truth of his finished works.

Ready to join me to walk with the knowledge that God has stepped in?

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Lights and Shadow II

"Without one there is not the other and at the presence of that one the other disappears" ~ Lights and shadows 

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me" ~ King David

Rick warren said in his interview with piers Morgan when he was talking about his son's suicide, that even in the valley of the shadow of death, God is there because there can't be a shadow without light.

that resonated with me, I had always had the idea that we are supposed to go through hard times by ourselves and if we make it through, we got a medal then be free to enjoy the good time (or something like that)

But, in my study of the word I found out that we do not have a High Priest Who is unable to understand and sympathize and have a shared feeling with our weaknesses and infirmities and liability to the assaults of temptation, but One Who has been tempted in every respect as we are, yet without sinning. 

Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the throne of grace (the throne of God’s unmerited favor to us sinners), that we may receive mercy [for our failures] and find grace to help in good time for every need [appropriate help and well-timed help, coming just when we need it] [Hebrews 4: 15-16][Amp]


Even in our dark moments, he gives us shadows and shadows are only present when there is light. We might be going through our darkest hours but lets look at the shadow and take comfort.
You may not "feel" him, what am i even saying? more than half the time, you will not feel anything. But like we have said, We are a people that don't live our lives by what we feel, we live by what we know.

In the beginning was the word and the word was with God and the word was God [John 1:1]

We are a people that take God by his word because that is what is the whole embodiment of who he is, His word.
When he says Yes, he means it and no one can say No. 
Its so easy for people to believe by faith "For God so loved the word that he gave his only begotten son..." [John 3:16]

What makes the promise of "I will never leave you nor forsake"  [Isaiah 42:16, Heb 13:5, Deut 31:6, Josh 1:5] you any different? 

Because we get process his love that is beyond our knowledge in our minds? But thats taken care of, because all we need is faith and He has given to us the measure of faith [Romans 12:3] 
In this our dark hours, lets hold on to his word (easier said than done, I know but more rewarding) by faith and take comfort in his promise.

God never fails and he is not going to start with you. Look ahead, can you see the light?

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Introducing: ThankfulThursday

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A while ago I kept a gratitude journal, which I stopped. I don't even exactly know why I did anyways, How did it work? I would just make a list of the things I am thankful for per day - as much as my small journal could take. I found on here recently and how she did the weekly "Thankful Thursday" and I felt it was about time I revived the attitude of giving thanks. 

This is what I am thankful for this week

1. Earphones 

2. The word

3. Bible study

4. Keke Napep

5. Little Journals that fit anywhere

6. Handbags

7. black flat shoes

8. creative mind

9. Lights

10. Zoom Lens

11. Older friends

12. Biscuit and milk

13. Coding knowledge

These are the things I am thankful for, What are you thankful for this week?

P.S: If you're using a desktop you would notice that i've changed a few alot of things on the blog, still doing alil tweaking here and there to still make it look better. So far what do you think of the new template? Please, Let me know. Thanks

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Staying on track is not a walk in the park

"I may not get what/be where i want - yet - but I am sure I want to be yours" ~ Tomilola [May 2013]

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One of the questions I've heard the most in the last months is "Why did you cut your hair again?" since my reason is in line with what the title of the post decided to share. Here are excerpts from my journal entry for the 18th of May, 2013 (The day I cut my hair)

"I want to be mad at you for letting me be here at this time and not answering my prayers, day after day, night after night but I remember that I made a decision to follow you regardless of whether you grant my request or not and I am reminded today.

So, I'm going to say this again and I am going to cut my hair today to remind me of this decision - I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE - No matter how bad I feel

I may not get what/be where I want - yet- but i'm sure I wan't to be yours and thats good enough"

There were alot of things that were not going right in my life at the time and I prayed about them and it just felt like nothing was happening, this was part of what I could scribble down to God and then I after a couple of months or so, I reached out to madam Salt because I needed to talk to an older person that would understand, and I really don't know why my heart spoke to her at the time (but I know now)

I was also having a conversation with Ibukun a while ago and we talked about how it was so easy to do what was wrong as against walking with God and doing what is right or living according to the word, came to the conclusion that we do right because we know to do right, end off.

There are so many temptations to just slip and "go with the flow" of the world but We are not of this world are we? [John 15:19]

How does this connect with my hair? I'm sure you know by now.
Its so easy to take the shortcut because your friends won't stop calling you SU or making jest of the choices you make in obedience to God, its so easy to conform to the worlds way of doing well because majority carries the vote, yes its easy but is it profitable?

I was beginning to forget, so (almost) everytime the wind blows on my scalp I am reminded that "although, Its not easy but I'm in this with you" then after I read True confessions I then understood what I was even doing, I was becoming a Knower instead of a Feeler.

Now, If we are honest with ourselves, we would admit that our flesh and feelings get in the way of our right living which makes it difficult IF we are trying in our strength.

"Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come" [John 16:13]
and what's the truth?

Truth = Jesus

The Devil operates via our physical senses, our feelings, what we can see, taste, hear, smell or feel but God operates through faith in him and "Faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the word of God" [Romans 10: 17]

How does staying on track become a walk in the park? By believing what we know from the word of God, when we make the concious effort to be KNOWERS, you will give even when you don't feel like it, you will keep your mouth shut when you just want to yell curse words at the unruly driver, you will show Gods love to someone that you should consider enemy, basically You start living right and stop being tossed around by our feelings and emotions (which are inconsistent btw) and you start to be motivated by the Truth in the word of God (which never changes)

Once again, are you going to join me to live like a knower?

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Friendship

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Chords.
Broken chords, flawed.
Flawed, you might be - alone
In one accord, we stand.
Harmonic sounds, we produce - together
Memories, we make - I adore.
On our androids, we record.

You fumble, I stumble.
Still, we stand - accord
Unbroken chord
Quick, I listen. Slowly I speak - to you.
That way, we don't crumble.
But we stand - one accord

The word "friend" so easily abused
But, you lend - your hand, I mend - your heart.
We bend the rules, we spend the time
We pretend to laugh - with them
We depend on Us.
Do I dare to say this will never end?

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Please feel free to copy and dedicate to a friend of yours (I'm nice like that ;))

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The Word in a Photograph: Light at the end of the Tunnel?

For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory ~ II Corinthians 4:17

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, 'will' guard your hearts and mind through Christ Jesus" ~ Phil 4:6-7

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me" ~ Psalm 23:4



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Lights and Shadows 1

"When God is ready to unearth your excesses, he leaves no shadow unlit" ~ Tomilola

We serve a God of light, why should there be any darkness in us? I can't say my soul is 100% light now, but I am being confident of this very thing, that He which hath begun a good work in me* will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ [Philippians 1:6 *Text altered]

When we do realise that this journey to perfection is not ours to "struggle" through, we have a comfort and peace and it starts making sense.

Since we stand for truth At the foot of the hill I will go ahead to tell you one, the last #TruthSeries was my story. I had started writing it a while ago and as I wrote about 2 lines, I stopped with tears in my eyes I just said "I can't do this Lord" and I just gave up, but I knew I was supposed to write it.

I totally forgot about it, but God was definitely working behind the scenes. The day I finally wrote it (Series of God-incidence lead up to that) I wrote it without a single tear. God had gotten me ready for that moment (I had no idea)

That same week, I had a conversation with my sister that lead up to the talk about my Dad and there and then God really opened our eyes to exactly what the problem was. 

Us!

Up until this moment, we had someone we called Daddy but God made us realise that we really had a father. I can't and don't want to go into his excesses (Thats not the purpose of this) but we acted to him based on the knowledge of his imperfections that we knew about.

Growing up, I had a father that would wake us up either by sprinkling water on us or touching our faces with his wet hand, then carry you into the bathroom, bath you and dress you up for school and some saturdays cooked for us. 
We grew up and got to the knowledge that he wasn't prefect and saw all his weaknesses and got mad that he wasn't as perfect as we thought in our early years.

Whats my point? I'm getting to it. Stay with me :)

After the conversation and prayer with my sister, we decided to let God help us make the conscious effort to show him Love and genuinely be interested. I then had a conversation with him, normally, i would sit there and try to get myself off the 'hook' in minutes to go back to whatever I was doing but this time, I was happy to actually sit and talk to him and really want to just kick myself for depriving me of a good relationship with him.
I can categorically say that I have one of the coolest dads in the world and all I did was listen. I didn't even do a lot of the talking. In one night I found out alot of things about him that I didn't know about  before now, Imagine if I had utilised my years with him? sigh.

But I am grateful, its better late than never right?
This brings me to the question I want to ask, How many times have we stopped looking at the good aspects of the people in our lives and capitalize on their weaknesses and act to them according to that?

Please, lets search hearts. I cannot promise you that the hard truth will be easy to face but its worth it. 
God is still shining his light to unearth all the darkness in me, this is my experience and I hope the spirit will prompt you to take a good look at all your relationships and make conscious effort to change things and for a change notice the wonderful qualities of that person.

And above all let God shed his light on your inner shadows!




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