#ThankfulThursday: Unhappy

Hallo People,

I am torn between being totally honest or following the aww-so-my-life-is-happy-on-the-internet trend. But I have been giving the impression on here lately that nothing is going great with me, but then I don't want to join the band wagon of masking the truth. As much as I am not great great right now, I am not depressed in anyway or sad. Still, I choose vulnerable, I choose to be truthfully about where I am at the moment.

So, In that light.....

I cried last night.

Well, more like sobbed. I can be a cry baby sometimes.

But, I just feel like the universe needs to give me a break. All I see are fingers pointing at me and like everyone is just waiting for me to make a mistake to pounce on me. At work (Most especially -___-). At home. Little things. ... And I am there like....

Can I get a break please??? 

This morning, I came out saw my neighbour and another man engrossed in their talk.. I mumbled my ¨Good Morning¨ and went about my business, only for him to just immediately jump at me 

¨Aunty, e ti le ki wa¨ (Aunty, you cant greet us) *Insert a long sigh here* 

This is someone that I would greet on most mornings and he won't answer me oh, but I still greet the next day. All I wanted to scream was ¨LEAVE ME ALONE¨

Last night, I just laid there in the dark and sobbed and talked to God. He won't let me stay there for too long. I wanted some sort of comfort. I NEEDED some. 

There are many things I am not very happy about at this time but I was reminded that through it ALL, He is always there. 

I am Thankful today for Solace in God. A place where I can just be, no accusations, not talk-down, no talk-at, No reminder, Nothing. Just a loving arm I can rest and be lovingly corrected for my mistakes. 

Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death?

 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:35,38-39 NLT

This is Me today! 

I am Thankful today for GOD'S LOVE!!!!!!!!!

Ready to be vulnerable with me? What are you Thankful for through it ALL?  

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#ThankfulThursday: We Must Praise

Yaaay!!! Its another #ThankfulThursday Honestly, I am almost slipping into the i-dont-care place and not feeling very thankful atall - I know some of you will start wondering 'Whats wrong with this one sef?' - but then there is so much up and down going on right now, what can a girl do? 

Praise anyways! 

So, I am going to pull myself away and still say what I am Thankful for this week! 

- My Heart; This week I felt, I craved not just for the physical but for the intangible. It didn't feel superficial and this hasn't exactly happened in a while and I am extremely grateful for it although I tried to write out a few lines in those moments but that didn't quite work well but I am choosing to focus on what worked :D 

- Ever faithful handbag; I have been the one to ALWAYS carry load in my bag, I must be with atleast 2 journals and a book I am reading then my laptop. I used to carry this zara bag till I was begged to let the bag go - Note that the bag was still in good working condition o *side eyes sisters* I have gone through like 2-3 new bags that just couldn't handle me and my load *rme* but recently my sister gave me this cute medium sized bag that is soooo strong and carries all my load... Yes even my laptop (Its a cute one) ;) 

Small but mighty!!

- Books

- My peeps at kontagora; I spent my service year in Niger state and hearing about the bomb blast that happened yesterday, I quickly sent messages to the people I knew there and thankfully they are alright. Its all fun and games till its people you can put a face and a name to. Nigeria, How long? Sigh!!

- Duvet; Living in a small space this has helped so much especially when there are visitors and my tiny bed can't fit us in... In the last 2weeks I have not been alone and I am grateful that this is there to help ease the harshness of the rug on your skin. *phew* 

- Immerse Academy: I was part of the first batch of this amazing group of women that went through 30-days in the bit to become better women and to propel us to that which God has called us to be. We had an white glam meet-up which was beyond amazing! - If you want to be part of the next batch please contact me! 

Some ladies during the photoshoot

- FlashPushCards; In the bit of being a better woman and growing to become who God has called me to be, I created these FlashpushCard which I am to put before my eyes to help me and remind me of who I am and not fall back to who I used to be. I am sharing them over at DailyExhortations instagram page (Follow along) and make sure to make yours and share with me... Deal?? :)

I am waiting to see yours!

- Sope; I am always grateful for this one! Always, He is there when I need to rant, he is there when I am on the high... Think lowest low and highest high... From Secondary school till now, he's gone through it with me... Chai!! we deserve a medal!! Now, he is leaving me and going across the atlantic ocean!!! :'( and heeeyys Sope, if you're reading this.. I still insist YOU SHOULD'VE GIVEN ME THAT HOODIE!!!!

So, If you are out there and you are like me that is not exactly in the 'Thankful' mood but we praise regardless here is a song that helped me through though times in the past ''Praise you in the storm'' - Casting crown! 

What are you Thankful for? 

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#ThankfulThursday: Checklists

 Hola!

How are you all doing? Its been a while... Thanks for the encouragement in my last post  I really do appreciate it. Its November!!!!! Whoooop!! And whats with the rain these day that only starts when someone is about to go to work?? I'm grateful for the rain oh, but I would be more grateful if it was during the night -__-

Grateful child!!!!!

:) How have you all been doing?
So, This year has been amazing I cannot lie. The growth has been immense although I can't say that I have a hang of everything yet but I have realised to just do today and not worry about tomorrow or yesterday!

What has been going on with me? Here is a list of everything I'm thankful for since the last #ThankfulThursday 

** There are plenty images continue at your own risk :p **

My Younger sis; She was around for a while and *whispers* I had fun while she was around. We did matching hair and there was so much selfies flying around *Phew*

She can pose for africe

Our very own cinema :) 

My hair: I let my hair out before I did the not protective style.

*Unlooking*

See style!! :D

Length check!!!

My Journal: I wrote from to back this year and not just in sections, Its all muddled up but Its a beautiful mess!!! 

See the difference? 

Green tea; It sure does some wonders. 

Don't ask, don't tell! ;p

Serenity: I took a walk round alausa on a saturday morning in October leaving the world i.e putting off my data  behind. Here are some of the images I got that day! 

The legs that walked the path of righteousness!

My Elder Sis; She is getting married!! Yaaay!!! I'm so excited. Its all happening sooo fast! 

S. Dont. Figure :p 

Please steal the time -______-

Sooooo, What are you Thankful for? Lets hear!!! 

:) 

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#ThankfulThursday: "Know Better, Do Better"

Hello Everyone, 

How are is your week going? October is a month of growth and a month of doing better not just knowing, but knowing to do better and this has kicked off well. I am absolutely grateful to God for everything he is doing.

Here are some more things I am Thankful for this week.

SOPE and our bond; He called me yesterday and all he had to say was "Are you where you can shout?" and I knew exactly what he was talking about then screamed my head off!!!!! God is goooooooood!!!! 

Skies, sunset, boat ride and a phone to capture the moment; 

Everytime I go to Ikorodu, the skies are different there... the other parts of Lagos una don chop the beautiful sky. Issh! 

The master Artist!!!

Promise kept and new books; I FINALLY got my own copy of when heaven weeps  and now add Frank peretti to the list. I have not gotten the chance to dig into these - I must finish the ones I am reading - buuut just looking at them looking at me makes me glad.

What new book is on your shelf? Or what are you currently reading?

See that? Need I say more?

Uber: Okay, So there is this new cab thingy going on in Lagos called Uber that a friend told me about, so I decided to try it out and boy, I was impressed!! Not just that the app was so cool but also that it was on time and see the ride? :) 

Just download the app here, sign-up with 'mobtomi' you get 3,000 and enjoy your ride. Thank me later. 

See the ride that came to pick me up? ;) 

My fav pair of Jeans; Fits perfectly and ever faithful. Please, say you have that one fav pair -__-

These and more I am grateful for. What are you grateful for?


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#ThankfulThursday: The Sisterhood of the World Blogger Award

Hello Everyone, 

I hope you all are enjoying the My God & I series so far? 

Yaaay!! 

I knowwww Fredilia this is late and I trieed to post it earlier but...... I even still owe This favoured Woman a liebstar response. But one step at a time right? Pardon me? pretty please?

Thank you. 

Here is my accepting the Award and doing the needful.

The Sisterhood of the World Blogger Award is an award passed from sister blogger to sister blogger, and there are just 5 conditions to be met when you accept the award:

1.Thank the blogger who nominated you, linking back to their site

2.Put the awards logo on your blog

3.Answer their ten questions

4.Make up 10 new questions for your nominees

5.Nominate 10 bloggers

Thank you Fredilia for the Award! I appreciate it so much. :)

But I got just one question:

"Tell us about a part of you that you struggled with (e.g. a habit, nose, shape, leg) and how you overcame the fear."

My Response: 

I know this is mostly about physical appearance but honestly, I didn't struggle with any of those. so, here is something else I struggled with. 

Failure. 

“To repeat grade 11”

clearly written on the dotted lines of my yearly academic report. My parents didn’t hide their disappointment in anyway and I lost the battle with tears letting it flow freely. I spent the holiday pinching myself hoping I would wake up from the bad dream only this dream didn’t seem to end.

The look I got from my mother haunted me to better grade the coming year. They weren’t convinced. I had ruined it once and it felt like they expected a repeat performance. They got a surprise till I graduated high school.

When i entered into the University it became a campaign to get my parents approval and get affirmations for a job well done, so I put in more efforts to get even better grades and as every year went by with better grade that were some not “good enough”, resentment grew.

A year before I graduated university, my mother pulled up a chair next to me, she told me how much growth she noticed in my academics and how wrong she was about me and for the first time in years she acknowledged my efforts.

I wrote once about my unsung heroes and how one guy (Joseph) just by taking out time to ask one 100L girl about her results and advising her to not relax but take her books seriously changed me and helped me have better grades till I graduated.

“I will give you beauty for ashes” says the Lord, and I also learned to forgive and let go of deep hurts regardless of the circumstances that caused them. I stopped seeking affirmations and saw the beauty in every battle not because I won or lost in the individual context but for every battle there was a degree of preparation for the next battle but I didn’t realise till I looked back.

This I am grateful for!! 

Happy New October people!! 

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#ThankfulSaturday: Chi-chi

I know x_x

I have been slacking for #ThankfulThursday but honestly I have been really grateful but time and chance happened to sharing -_-

What i'm I thankful for this week?

1. Friendships
2. Instagram
3. Getting things done
4. Moving forward
5. Inner weakness revealed 
6. Growth

What are you grateful for this week? 

soooooo, been a while I posted any pictures I've taken. This bundle of energy is called Chi-chi, she is my elder Sister's dog and she is soooooo troublesome. She's not allowed to roam about the house as she will scatter it and leave it a shadow of itself, but anytime she is let out? see running... 

Its so amazing watching her mannerism in different situations, minus the stress of the care having a dog around is an amazing experience. 

You should see her 'pity me' eyes when you have to lock her in the cage. Epic! I captured one of her playful outside moments.

Can you tell  just how playful she is? 

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Random: Updates and Thanksgiving

Hello Everyone,

How was your weekend?

I know I just had to post this today! There was no way I will go to bed without doing this, I am even typing this without writing down first( I hardly ever do that).

 This past week has been busy and even at the back of my mind I wanted at least to write a ThankfulThursday Post but alas, Work called. So, I am here to pay my debt.

I am very grateful to God, generally for the life that he has given me. 

Sometime in May, I felt the nagging feeling that something was about to change. I didn't know what but I got excited. Now, I feel the need to write about this phase I am going through, although i'm still in the process but I feel that someone will get something out of it. I have not concluded what I will name the series yet, but it is going to be something in line with an under 25 girl living alone in Lagos. Suggestions?

I really just want to share my experience and I think its about the time ( I feel a peace about it already)

I am thankful about the friends I have, Jeez! They are so amazing. 

I am also working on putting together an interview-like thing that will start Mid September (Next week) for young Christians, their faith and their journey through life. So, this is asking if you want to be a part of that please kindly drop me an Email (tomi.akibo@gmail.com) Oh! I don't have a name yet too x_x I will surely think one up before the time is right. Please, do let me know if you don't mind sharing your journey with Christ with the world. Would be expecting!

Grateful for new opportunities

Last week, I went for a training and Gosh! I realised how much I would LOVE to do data analysis. I am so excited about this and the opportunity to learn more, BUT I am discovering that I get bored easily with new things and being careful about it I am containing my excitement and taking it all in little-by-little plus I met this lady during the training and we seem to have alot in common. Name, interest and what not


List of more things I am thankful for;
- New beginnings
- A place that is HOME
- DIY
- Zaron lip pencil
- Nail polish
- Sister T
- New Friends

What are you thankful for?
P.S: I opened my blogger and I see marriage talk everywhere.... Warris happening? *Side eyes* +Atilola Moronfolu (here) and sykik Now let me go and read ;)

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#ThankfulThursday: Beyond measure or what?

 Hello Everyone,

How has your week been so far?

Please tell me today is Thursday? I don't know why it doesn't feel like that or is it Just me? 

You know that place you get to in your life-walk where you have no clue what to do? where to go? what next will/should happen? No direction? No instruction? 

Yes, I am there. I am not exactly in a Thankful mode that is the more reason I need to take my eyes off myself and BE THANKFUL.

So, Here are the things I am thankful for this week. 

1. Tosin; She was over for most of the week and I am grateful to find someone to tickle and disturb and we can lament about our inability to cook something at home (Thanks to me), eat cake and talk together. 

 2. This Book; I have been reading this book for over 2 months and just finished it this week, I took my time to read it and pray the prayers in there well. No, I'm not a wife - Yet - but you have to be a praying wife before you become the praying wife right?? (I need to stop talking about husband, wife, marriage somethings -__-)

3. Meeeeee: I am thankful for me and the woman God is moulding me to be! Chai! I have grown. Emi gaan mo mo (Me sef, I know) I just see myself handing somethings that I would've handled wrongly if it happened 2-3 years ago and my growing confidence is God despite what I see? Oh wow! Its amazing! 

4. Journals and scrap booking: I'm a journal lover... Oh!! *whistles* I have plenty #Unashamed too, There's this thin line between my love and addiction, I know I won't cross that line. Got a new one recently and I want to use it for a scrap book, I just need many scrap things. If you're into all the DIY scraping thing can you give suggestions? #ShySmile Or maybe pinterest? 

5. Growing friendship with Deji; I love how this friendship is challenging me to be better and do better. Nothing like it honestly! I'm glad :)

6. HAiirrr and trying new things: Yep! Another excuse to post another picture of me #VainMoment. I wore a huge earring for the first time in over 2 years. I loved the look, but I don't think I will be wearing for a long time, Its back to my ''full stop'' but being open enough to even try it sef, giving myself some credit :)

 7. To-do lists that actually get done :) I have been crossing out alot of things on my to-do list! Ah! God be praised.

8. Sope; I know Gods working something amazing for my darling and I am grateful for him.! #CantWait!

Yep! Thats it. So, over to you. 

What are you thankful for? 

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