Vlog: I am ashamed of myself....

Hello,

Been a while i did a video and this was totally random but then, i am really really ashamed of myself, you will know why when you see the video. 

Watch after the cut :)

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Why you should Masturbate.

Hi Everyone. Happy New Year.

*Awkward Silence*

Yes, you read right, okay. Honestly there is a huge invisible NOT between should and Masturbate, you can all contribute your sighs of relief here \______/
I just needed to arouse your curiosity, How did I fair?

Don't go Just yet na. Hang around alil more.

On a more serious note, we always look for justification for our addictions so, atleast that would give us some form of 5-mins fix that we are not so bad afterall "misery needs company" right? And after that? We are back to square one

Don't stop reading, I'm heading somewhere :)

We are all addicts of some sort, whatever/whoever it is we are addicted to good stuff or bad stuff, in this case we younger ones find ourselves in this mostly, It simply starts with and experiment next thing you know you are neck deep, the sad part is, its a closet addiction and very few people would have the courage to confess to a friend about it.

After every "closet-session" there is always the feeling of emptiness, Guilt, helplessness, hopelessness and for the extreme cases Nothing.

Good News? Your case is NOT helpless you asked why? Glad you did.

" But God has shown us how much he loves us—it was while we were still sinners that Christ died for us!" Romans 5:8


"....... His Love endures forever" Psalms 136

".........the lord is full of compassion and mercy" James 5:10



I have Just 2 reasons why I think you should Not masturbate again, and I'm sorry but I would go hard.

"There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed or hidden that will not be made known" Luke 2:2

"I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do nothing.
But I will show you whom you should fear: fear him who, after killing of the body, has the power to throw you into hell, Yes, I tell you, fear him" Luke 2:4

So How should be done to battle the addiction?

"They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. Sanctify them by the truth; Your word is truth
For them I sanctify myself, that they too may be truly sanctified" John 17:16-17 & 19

Read the Bible. 

"What the Law could not do, because human nature was weak, God did. He condemned sin in human nature by sending his own Son, who came with a nature like our sinful nature, to do away with sin
God did this so that the righteous demands of the Law might be fully satisfied in us who live according to the Spirit, and not according to human nature

You however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the spirit, if the spirit of God lives in you, and if anyone does not have the spirit of christ, he doesn't belong to christ." Romans 8: 3-4 &9
Let the Spirit help.

You don't think you can?

"In all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. Romans 8:37

You can beat this addiction through Christ, I believe in you.

If you are still reading this to this point there is a reason, use the comment box and let me know if you are struggling with this or any other addiction and think this can help or you know someone, ofcourse you can comment anonymously.

Thanks for sticking around!

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The Chair

I was going through a rough time and my friend @DeboAj gave me a task to write 3 stories within week with a happy ending, it was indeed a challenge because, at that time i was down in the low and writing was the last thing on my mind, not to talk of a happy ending, but i managed to write this "gba je n simi" (Take let me rest) story, hope you enjoy...
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"i, my name is toun and I need a fix” I had heard about The Chair  and how everything said in it becomes confidential, hoping that silly introduction I made becomes confidential too. Although I knew that was the official introduction  for “whatever” anonymous, I also just assumed it was appropriate for “the chair”.

Finally, I was lying on the infamous chair, the chair where many people where many people had admitted their worst fears, the chair where many people have discovered their life’s purpose, the chair that has lead to insanity for some.

It took me a lot of courage and time wasting to make it to this chair, this is my first appointment, I gave a sigh of relief, which did everything but hide my fears. It was okay, I was here. My journey brought me here. And its far from over.

Graduating from the University with a first class degree, I had so many offers for a job. I was 22. I was excited, I loved my life. I started work with the oil company that offered the highest Salary. The firs year was fun, I got paid huge money, lived alone for the first time, partied when I had the time, got a car after the first year. I was basically living the life. Not for long.

I got a promotion, I should  be happy right? No. My boss is lazy, he dumps all his work load on me, I started working 6am-9pm and I still take some work home. My life became routined, I  go to work, get take out food on my way back, sit in the same chair, use the same type of plate; which is disposable by the way, because I don’t have time to do the dishes, sit at the tv; when I don’t have work then I fall asleep. I am 24 and I don’t have a life outside work.

I live everyday like a zombie, I have my cloths and shoes arranged according to the days of the week, I have not gone out on a date in 2years, everyone at work gives me the “weird” look and whisper when I walk pass, I don’t mind. I’m excellent at my job, that consoles me. Its all I’ve got. I’m 27 and nothing has changed.

Sitting at the table one Saturday staring at a pile of workload  I had to go through, out of the blue the tears came running rushing, then the question “For how long, Toun” uncontrollable tears followed my huge question. I didn’t have the answers, I had just gotten to the point where I admitted I needed a chair. The chair. That was 6 months ago, here I am now in “The Chair” trying to talk to a total stranger to make sense of my life. This is my appointment, the first of many. I hope.

The chair has become a place of solitude, a place where I make sense of all the chaos, a place where I let it out, sitting at the other end of the room is my therapist, every Thursday, 3 months together, I put the pieces together. The chair was worth it.

I quit my job, picked  up a camera and I looked at the world through a lens, I did that weekdays and enrolled for weekend make – up classes, started going out a lot, made new friends. I met a man as I went for one of my outdoor shoots, we are going out on a date.

I’m 28. I picked up the pieces of my life and it all started with an appointment with the chair.  

What do you think?

Love

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day 17: Someone from my Childhood

Warning: This is probably gonna be the driest post ever cos where i am right now i did not get internet connection to use my phone to update all morning......

Honestly i don't have anything to write because today was not exactly a good day for me *too long story* you dont wanna know trust me... anyways i'm just updating nnow because i don't want to fail in my challenge, so am gonna highlight what i've bin doin lately/ what i've bin goin through

1. Trip to Ife...Trust me i needed it...
2. Got a new ASST. Boyfriend *don't ask*....i like him (if u r ma friend and u r intrested in knwin ask me...lol)
3. IT report.. its harder than au it sounds trust moi
4. Thinking hard about taking my writing seriously...It sounds like a really good idea, i've spoken to a couple   of pple
5. I saw a couple of old friends....gosh that felt so good..if i saw u this week..mmuuaaahhhh
6. I saw my 'FRIEND....It was so good to see you after wat seemed like forever..
7. Right now am chatting wif ma nu asst. bf and am feeling all mushy...bite me!
8. I Love myself and YOU
9. truthfully i dont actually have anything else to write....

Remember i warned you it waas gonna be boring so please don't blame me, lets Blame PMS today.....

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Day 12: The person i hate/ the person that has caused me the most pain

I've Learnt not to hate people, so i don't hate anybody honestly.
I know people i've caused me pain well look through Day 7 all of those people in their own way ve caused me pain but am not sure who caused me the most pain...

oh! Yeah i remember my bicycle has caused me the most pain, in those days that was the period i had the injuries from learning and doing stunts with it hmm...since i stopped riding i've not gone to d clinic to complain for injuries...opps sori i was asked who not what ok!

k this is nt exactly my bicycle but it was kinda similar...lol

So i don't have a anyone that has caused me so much pain...cos i have a very forgiving spirit so i've forgiven everyone i guess!

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Did he just pee???

So this guy picked me up after work yesterday then we got to a point where we where waitin for the traffic light then he started telling me he had to pee, but there was no way he cld get down admist d traffic...he just kept lamenting and makin funny sounds that he was so pressed..as soon as there was the green light he just tried his best to get out of the traffic so fast but the next thing i hear is 'i can't hold it anymore' then there was silence...
please those of you that know me don't ask me who The person is o cos i wont ans..so dear mr. Who picked me up after work yesterday ur secret is safe with me i just couldnt but share this....

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