256: Cumi

My name is Deborah.
It was my first time. I only needed this time to throw into the ocean what had been an abomination to me previously. Just this one time.

I got caught... 

17, I met and started to experience these specie of human beings. The unsatisfied, the greedy, the perv Specie of the homo sapiens or like my sister will call them "Dirty Old men". I got the occasional winks. "Let me drop you by your house" and all that was fine until it became within close proximity.

18, I started an Internship. First day of work, met with my line manager, supervisor and overall Manager of the Department. It all started with little campaigns as entrusting me with the key to his office, commenting on my innocent look, asking to be his typist in my spare time leading to me earning his Trust - Maybe a little too much, so much that he left a pornographic clip playing in one of his 'Come and stay in my office while I go out' routines and said "Whatever you see there should not leave this Office"

I was wise enough to run before he demanded I do what I saw in the video clip...

I got dragged to the Master...

19, I started my 2nd Internship uncermoniously. On a faithful day, walking into his office to report some work done, He 'pinned' me to the wall in his office. Trying to convince me to kiss him, he placed his hand on his member trying to show me his hard-on.
"Look what you've caused" He said.
I managed to free myself from the 'pin down' without kissing him. Few days later, 2 cute boys and a woman with a protruding belly walked into the office, they were his family but he hadn't been wearing a ring.

"I noticed your countenance dropped when you saw my boys, you didn't do anything. You shouldn't feel bad" was what he said to me when he called me later in the evening.

I was disgusted.

I fell to my knees...

20, Messages going back and forth. I like him, He likes me. He also has a family.

We are not having an affair, we just acknowledge and a couple of flirtatious text messages and calls doesn't do anybody any harm. It was only a matter of time before we took the 'passion' out of the text messages and into reality. It felt good, good enough for me to meet up a 2nd time and a 3rd...

4:00pm Friday, 24th August, 2001

Deb: Hey You.
P: I was just thinking about you
Deb: really? What about?
P: I miss your lips
Deb: hmmm... 
P: Available tomorrow?
Deb: Yes, Time?
P: 6pm. Rm 256. Same place.
Deb: See you Then.
P: :) 
. . .

bang! bang!! 
On the door.
"Are you expecting anyone?" I asked as I stood up to open the door. Once I unbolted the door it flung open and shouts filled the atmosphere.

'Husband snatcher' 
'Useless girl' 
'They' dragged me to this mysterious looking man

I fell to my knees...

I fell to my knees in his presence drowning in the guilt and thought of what will befall me in a minute or 2, he turned his back to 'them' that dragged me down to him after saying something to them that I didn't hear and gradually the shouts died down and you could hear them leave, one after the other. I trembled and still couldn't lift up my head.

I flinched when he tapped me.
"Where are they that accuse you? Has no one condemned you?"

Still confused at what just happened or who this man is "No" I replied

"Neither do I, Go and Sin no more"

I stood up and glanced with curiosity at what he scribbled on the sand

"256"
I looked up at him again and he smiled and said

"I know all"

***Cumi is based on a true life story using John 8:1-11 as a backbone***
What stood out for you?

Have you come to an end of yourself? Have you come to a point where nothing else seems to be working out and you've tried all you could? Click to meet GRACE

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Happy Nappy

Hello People, How is the 2013 Journey going? Mine? Lovely :) So, i've been meaning to do this and since i had alot of time on my hands today i decided to go through my pictures to share my Natural hair Journey. Hope You guys enjoy it :)

Journey so far!

My hair was really long before i semi-big chopped it, but when you are in the north with the weather and not knowing what to do with your hair and it starts breaking, your next instinct is to cut it off. Well thats what i did, now let me walk you through my journey.

Long hair :)

Transition!

 I Cut it the first time and i felt it was still too long and cut it lower a few days later.

TWA

TWA.. Does this length count?

TWA

I love Twist outs

Mini-Afro

Twist-out

Wash and go afro

Twist out fro-hawk

The best styles... The fro-hawk got me attention!!

Twist-outs and Afro

Kinky Afro!

Protective Styles!

Call it bad hair days... x_x

That is my Natural hair Journey so far... Getting ready to rock my Semi-big Afro!!! Yaaaay!! I LOVE MY KINKY HAIR!!!!!

Black and Proud.

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Drained

 

 

 

I knew there was something wrong with me, I could not understand. When my mum came to me that afternoon, I was reluctant to give her an answer, she meant well, I understood but I was afraid of them

“what if they make me hurt someone?” I thought

“You have to go and spend time with your uncle, you know right now I cannot really take care of you and your brother” I nodded in agreement.

The trip down to the Ogunyemi’s how was a long one and felt even longer because I didn’t want to be here, but I had their approval. The compound wasn’t too large or too small either, well furnished 3-bedroom apartment, they had 3 beautiful daughters; ages 5, 4 and 1, they warmed up to me quickly, we kicked off the love affair. I helped clean, helped the children with their homework, we played and they left me for a year, just when I thought they were gone then they showed up.

I felt the tap on my thigh that night, I wondered what my aunty wanted at that time of the night. I opened my eyes, I was wrong. They had come for me – Again.

“Its time” she said

All I had to do was hold her hands – I did reluctantly.

The roar of laughter reminded me that it was a reality, I was here again.

“How did you get her out?” The madam asked, directed to the person that brought me.

“The woman of the house travelled, the one that is always praying” she rolled her eyes

“We have been trying to get to you for a year now, but that woman would just not shut up, but now I’m sure you would come to us even after she comes back” she caressed my chin with her hands slowly. I got the message and got in line with the other girls, Listening to how things went down here was very different, I came back here everynight for the next 2 months and with every visit I lost a part of my humanity.

I could feel it drawing closer and closer, it was my turn, time for my mission and I couldn’t mess it up.

“Wait, damola. Why this dress again? She wore it to church last Sunday”

“Yes ma, but she looks so good in it, let her wear it again today”

She looked at lola who is oblivious of the happening around her and was ready for her party, she smiled

“Yes, she does. We are running late anyways, no time to change cloths, Lets go”

I stood there watching them panic

“I don’t know what’s wrong with her, she was fine before we left home” He said touching her head

“this is not the first time this is happening, should we take her to the hospital?”

“Morons, complete morons – don’t you notice its everytime she wears the dress she falls sick?” I thought to myself as I watched them

“let me get a cold cloth so we can dab her head” they nodded in agreement. I felt the smile at the corner of my lips as I turned my back against them.

I watched her lifeless attached to all the wires on the hospital bed, I sat across my aunt looking all worried and I didn’t feel anything, she stood up to pee and I just wanted to strangle the little brat and make my job easier, but then it’s a process, she has been drained.

“she would need blood transfusion, I cant explain but she needs the blood urgently” I overhead the doctor tell my uncle outside the room, I didn’t wait to listen to the rest of the conversation, I didn’t  need to. Things were going on according to plan.

She is awake, she looks weak and she’s smiling. I know she’s still small but can you see the confident smile? Even on the sick bed, she looks special even on the bed, no wonder they wanted her out of the way and I would help them get there.

Grandma was in town, she was going to spend the night with Lola.

We opened the door to the house, the pastor had come to visit, he was about to leave and he started praying; he paused and asked for that dress, when the dress was brought to the living room, he looked at the dress and looked at me and I knew right there that it was over.

I fell to my knees!

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I'm sorry this is a bit gloomy for this season but this is based on a true-life story and i just wanted to get it all out there before the year is over. Yes, this is my story and i'm the one on the hospital bed and NO this aint a pity party, this is a way of getting to see things from her perspective because i've asked alot recently why someone would want to harm a small child but i came up with nothing and after listening to a sermon from a former witch and she says when people do things that they wont normally do its because there is a force behind it, and yesterday it just came to me to write about it and my sisters would know how touchy i have been since last night when i started, but now? i have more clarity and i'm ready to let it go.

Its the end of the year and i want to drop whatever baggage  is droppable, although there are not much but then, before i started writing this i had no idea i would feel this good after, but i Thank God for laying in my heart to write this.

You know what i learnt to help me forgive easily? Take the walk in their shoes, try and see it from the person's perspective, and know their story and it would even help us to judge people less - I know its helping me!

I would record my video today and bring you some smiles before the end of the year!

Have a wonderful end of  2012

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Blue Peril: The Genesis

Hello People, My name is Adriana, and I love shoes, i would just buy shoes and put them on display and just be happy just looking at them, I know this is not a good first impression but truthfully I’m into shoes. Today is not about shoes though, I kissed a guy today and I did NOT feel a thing, well maybe except disgust; which is weird, a kiss never disgusts me, I mean it’s a kiss for crying out loud. So why did a kiss disgust me?

I decided to come here to share the stories behind my love life on here and try to make them as short as possible and spread them over time. This is my first Piece, Do Enjoy.

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I live in a world where uncool is a synonym for Virgin, not to talk of being a kiss- virgin too. I was 16 and in SS2, I wasn’t bothered, I only cared about physics assignment – I had a strict teacher, Chemistry lab work and who I was going to disturb during Prep. Although I got a lot of attention from boys, wasn’t bothered either.

Not for long

Strolling along the road with my friend one Saturday during visiting hours, She stops to greet this tall, slim, handsome boy, then she introduces us, we all got talking, I was so engrossed that I didn’t even know when my friend left us. We kept talking for hours about God know what.

There were a lot of boys with the “good – looking” appearance all over the school but not all of them had a good command of English and could make me laugh like Joseph did, and just like that I became one of them, you know those “Snr Adriana, Snr Joseph wants to see you outside” category of girls, I was so shy I would see him for a short while then go back to my hostel “Still Thinking about it”

Quick Question: When we were younger, why did we believe in keeping the boy waiting too long even if we liked him?

I had senior friends who would go for prep- after- prep, come back and  start a tell – it – all discussion about “happened” during the prep after dark, my young mind would pick up on stuff and arouse my curiosity.

Finally, I decided to become Josephs girlfriend so I joined the prep – after – prep band wagon, gradually since basically prep after dark wasn’t for ‘talking’ we started running out of things to say, I starting panicking.

Not for long either.

“Adriana, tell me, have you kissed Joseph before?” She dropped it on me like bomb one prep - after – prep night.

“Because I kissed segun today and it really felt good” She continued

Trying not to look in her eyes “Errrmmm…. I’ve never kissed before, I really don’t know how to”

I almost laughed out at the shock I saw on her face.

Recovering from her shock, she tried to convince me about how awesome and harmless kissing is “You close your eyes, there can be tongue involved, you let him lead and soak it in”

I sat there nodding my head and soaking it all in like an agama lizard and with every intake if the words I said good bye to a little piece of my innocence.

One prep after prep, trying to say goodbye to my “love” then he put his lips on mine and for a second there I would have sworn all the blood I had in my whole body went up to my brain so I couldn’t send the signal to my lips to part ways to give way for his, so I stood there two hands by my side, lips closed and he trying to stick is tongue in my tight closed lips, now what’s the definition of awkward again? I just gave the shy smile and left for my hostel, of course I had to go back and give my tutor feedback, I couldn't crush her feelings and tell how much bad a student I was.

Literally

“It was nice” was my reply and she just smiled, gave me the I – told -  you – so look and hugged me like saying goodbye to my innocence was something to celebrate.

After numerous Preps after dark and attempts to have a non-tongue-forcing-kiss, I finally learnt to part my lips while kissing and my life never remained the same.

Met my friend on my way to his class after School on a Friday, She greeted me longer than usual, that was where I got suspicious “Seriously Bimpe What’s going on?, let me go I need to see Joseph”

Reluctantly she let me go without saying a word to reply me.

As I walked to see Joseph and one of his friends playing as usual but this time before they could sight me their tongues were doing a little playing too, rubbing my eyes clearing my throat by the window side making sure the saw me, then I walked away. We saw each other a couple of times after that incident.

But Not for long.

I broke up with him. I was miserable, but of course I learnt a huge lesson about peer pressure in this first phase of my love life, do things for you not because your friend thinks it’s a good idea or because your friends think its cool, so at least you would be responsible for your Actions and not blame someone for your mistakes – people that won’t be there to clean the mess when the water boils over the cooker.

Too lazy to clean maam?

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day 17: Someone from my Childhood

Warning: This is probably gonna be the driest post ever cos where i am right now i did not get internet connection to use my phone to update all morning......

Honestly i don't have anything to write because today was not exactly a good day for me *too long story* you dont wanna know trust me... anyways i'm just updating nnow because i don't want to fail in my challenge, so am gonna highlight what i've bin doin lately/ what i've bin goin through

1. Trip to Ife...Trust me i needed it...
2. Got a new ASST. Boyfriend *don't ask*....i like him (if u r ma friend and u r intrested in knwin ask me...lol)
3. IT report.. its harder than au it sounds trust moi
4. Thinking hard about taking my writing seriously...It sounds like a really good idea, i've spoken to a couple   of pple
5. I saw a couple of old friends....gosh that felt so good..if i saw u this week..mmuuaaahhhh
6. I saw my 'FRIEND....It was so good to see you after wat seemed like forever..
7. Right now am chatting wif ma nu asst. bf and am feeling all mushy...bite me!
8. I Love myself and YOU
9. truthfully i dont actually have anything else to write....

Remember i warned you it waas gonna be boring so please don't blame me, lets Blame PMS today.....

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Day 1: My BestFriend - sss

 This is a very difficult  question in the sense that i v like a zillion bestfriends...so since i went to different secondary schools i v bestfriends from everyone of ma schls so here we go... 

uju

faith

One of ma childhood bestfriends is 'faith' crazy wakabout girl..we've gone way back from jumping tables durin breaktime in primary sch hmm...lookin bk nw, i js cant help but smile...i knw she loves me she just use to form...lol... Then there is uju that has been my friend from the womb and she taught me how to eat sand (if u are reading this you know u did i v pic proof..lol), altho' distance and time has come between us but the friendship is still there oh did i mention am older by like 4days..hehehe so much for womb friends....

elzom

Tosin ajayi, Elzom we were bestfriends for a while so i guess that counts...as much as i miss those days we were friends i know we can't go back cos everybody done dey form na wah oo...

Then i have Deyo adedoyin, i love this girl to death am sure she does not know how much she contributed to my life and am sure she loves me cos if not she wouldnt v taught all w@ she taught me...and we used to fight alot i remember and we wld not talk for a while then we kiss and make up, she would protect me from uglt boys hehehe, she stood by me wen there was no one...deyo am glad u are part of ma life o, and i really wish we are as close as we used to be then...am still ur bestie oo...btw deyo taught au to wash ma cloths clean...

sope

debby

ene

tochi

Then there is sope oduwole now he is not supposed to b on this list cos he is now considered a  brother rather than a best friend one thing i like about him is d fact that he helps me to talk and say ma mind and doesnt judge me when advisin me..i love you much....i have debbie, ene, tochi...bestest girls these people helpd me discover ma crawziness....ene you especially crazy girl, they all v thei uniqueness and i love em all...

oshin

jombai

nasty

olaitan

grace

id

Then i have yinka oshin, tomi ojelade, nasty adepoju, ene jombai, olaitan adesina, akinsola idowu,  tola yekini, grace oladokun....i love this girls for real, they may not know it oo....

My newest bestfriend is ma cousin luke, ma twin brother, we've bin cousin like forever et all but recently we've got talking and really seen a different side to d side i knew all this while and its really cool i must say...

Phew...so am done, really i neva knew that i had this much peeps as best friends and u guys don't call me???oya berra pick up ur fone na na na and call me..lol...i love u guyz so much plz kip being ma bffs xoxoxx...

P:S: am not sure if i mentioned all my besties o, so if u r not listed you've not bin keepin in touch... 

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Blog Challenge

Am going to be answering questions from the challenge that i copied from a fellow blogger (http://adorableashgold.blogspot.com)for the next 30 days i hope i can c it through sha... watch this space...

Here are the things am going to be writing about..

Day 1 - Your best friend
Day 2 - Your crush
Day 3 - Your parents
Day 4 - Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 - Your dreams
Day 6 - A stranger
Day 7 - Your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 - Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you would like
Day 11 - A deceased person with whom you wish you could talk
Day 12 - The person you hate/the person that caused you the most pain
Day 13 - A fictional book
Day 14 - Someone from whom you have drifted
Day 15 - The person you miss the most
Day 16 - Someone that is not in your state or country
Day 17 - Someone from your childhood
Day 18 - The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind - good or bad
Day 20 - The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 - Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 - Someone to whom you want to give a second chance
Day 23 - The last person you kissed
Day 24 - The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 - The last person to who you made a pinky promise
Day 27 - The friendliest person you knew for only one day

this should be fun am looking foward shaa...

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Dear Mandela... No not nelson mandela Jor!!!!

Dear Mandy,


I know you don’t know that I’ve been using that your hard cover note book -dat one you ‘shared’ during your convocation- to write down notes for my blog and it would soon finish oo..

On ‘our’ way to work tis morning(tobi and i) I was telling her bout the almost-finished-book and how I would get another one which led to her telling me that your younger sis would graduate soon(please keep a book for me)

So one talk led to another which brought about your beautiful-brother as she called him ooo, hearing that my fine-boy antenna (click to knw about fine-boy antenna) came out sharply and I became interested…No! Scratch that…

The thing is that I love to associate myself with fine people, so its not like am looking for him to be my boyfriend ooo..i just want to meet new beautiful people…and I would try my best not to be tempted to put our first meeting here…

I hope I’ve been able to convince you that its totally okay to introduce you beautiful brother to me as my FRIEND…

Your sincerely,

DramaQueen



PS: I still don’t mind an extra copy of the sexy-hard-cover-graduation book oo

PPS: you abandoned me all this while and I forgive you totally from the bottom of my heart…

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First time Sucks!!!

It was a Friday and I was to meet a guy I had been chatting with for a while now (don’t do that alot) lets call him BD…


When I closed from work @ 5 and since the place was not so far from my office then I thought ‘it can’t hurt right?’ knowing I’ve been posting this guy for like 2-3weeks, then I called and asked for where I would meet him ‘pink-something’(honestly I can’t remember) I was just wondering in my mind ‘why the name pink??’ I sha discarded the ridiculous name and cos really it doesn’t matter to me…

After looking round Lagos (not literally) I finally found the place like play like play it was freaking painted PINK!!! Now I don’t know why the colour is freaking me out….

OMG! I get the weirdest feeling when I was walking into the place ‘I’ve neva walked into an hotel to meet a guy before EVER!!’ as soon as that thought came to my head it felt like something that could be a scene out of a Nigerian movie-

The girl would go see a guy in an hotel and she takes a drink not knowing the drink is poisoned after the first sip she is a dizzy and the next thing she knows, she wakes up naked under a duvet on a bed(like duh..where else?) With rough white bed sheets, feeling all sour trying to remember what happened…SNAP!!!

I quickly pulled myself out of that thought ‘God forbid’ that is not my portion IJN.

He said he was at the bar, but as soon as I walked into the hotel I feel at home why?? Well cos the cloth I wore had the same pattern, colour as the chairs, rugs and curtains OMG! ‘why did I wear this cloth today??? Arrrggghhhh’

Still feeling weird and homely I walked into the bar and there he sat ok! There is nothing so slow motion..ish and butterflies-in-the-tummy about the moment but when I saw him I knew he was him, he ws on the phone when I walked in and motioned for me to have a seat which I did, looking around and the table in front me hmm…Gulder and coke, cigarette, ash tray ok!*no comments* since am on the quest of not judging people cos of their bad habits I did not mind the cigarette(if it was 2 months ago I would have been bothered) ….Now he is off the phone and we exchange greeting and all did the face-to-face introduction then he asked ‘what would you like to drink-we don’t do soft here ’ he added, remembering my JUNE 19 (click to read d experience)experience with alcohol ‘alakoba!’ was all that came to my mind and with my ealiar Nigerian-movie-scene thinking I said ‘nothing’ but he insisted and I decided on juice now to make my imagination run wild the freaking bartender brought it in a glass ‘there is no way am drinking that!’

So all we said has gone into the history books but all I was thinking was lemmi just get the hell out of here cos am freaking late…Really one thing I know for sure is that am so not doing this again as in meeting a guy I just chat with…there is room for exceptions sha...

P.s: I took the juice and it was not poisoned + I think am loving my new life-my getting off facebook-twitter -and only blogging life, btw i noticed while proof reading dt i used alot of 'freaking' words hmm..mayb am becoming a freak *now singing* i can be a freak everyday of every week!!!

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Hang3r?...No! Hang-on?..hmm..Hang-und3r?..HANG-'OV3R'!

So this post is supposed to be older this took place June 19th but i could not but let the world know how i felt....

Since i had been waiting since May 19th for June 19th, i could not miss it for anything in the world cuz its another family gathering hmm...Some olojede descendant...ish they are always the bomb, so its my big mummy's 50th bday and my cousins wedding and it was all in Ife...The day went well and it was alot of fun..the best part is supposed to be at night when all the children meet and have fun hmm...
Music bleering and people dancing so all of this is new to me and am sitting in the corner with one of  my cousins (oyinda) who is busy getting memory space for her phone...i decide to get a drink and there is just smirm off ice ok oh..am new to all of this o am reminding myself, am just sipping it in like its nothing..then again its nufin cuz i don't feel a anything, so this is getting interesting! Gideon comes with a drink in the cup and curiousity would not let me rest so i collect it 'what is dis?' 'its jack daniels' am dowing it like i know wat it contains and honestly it does not taste good but i just wanted to take everything...mins later am feeling the effect cuz am super active and dancing under the influence (DUI) but really my legs are so weak and my eyes woozy but this strength is coming from nowhere and all that is on my mind is 'dance your head off baby' so i obey oh! now time to go home really don't know how i slept and what i remeberd i just know i woke up feeling like a piece of shit..it was one of the worst days of  my entire life..if this is the idea of an hangover i neva want it again EVER! but if there is family gathering hmm..i go do ooo
so am thinking what do they gain?and they go back everyday like its some point of duty to do so..itz sad cos they feel that terrible in the morning and still go back in the evening to buy a cold bottle of slow poison...vanity upon vanity all is wat?? VANITY!!!

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