... At the foot of the Hill [Psalm 121]

Feb 19, 2012

The Pain.

The ache in your heart,
The ache from inside out,
The motionless movement,
The emptiness you feel,
The endless questions,
The Regrets,
The Uncontrollable tears,
Blood shot eyes,
Then you ask why?
Why this?
Why me?
What is the point?
The point of the pain.

Am not sure i know what am on about. Anyways hope i made sense?

Feb 11, 2012

We are one!!!!

This ONE journey started with a step ofcoursee a step..
I met this amazing someone over a year ago and 1115msgs, a couple of calls and one visit later, i was totally in love. Its been a wonderful year with you and i've never regretted any part of it.

Its not  been a smooth ride all through, but what keeps me going is the fact that i know we would always get through those difficult times.

Thank you for choosing to love me, thank you for all the kind words and encouragement, thank you for all the correctons (Even if you think i dont listen) Thank you for seeing me as beautiful ALL the time, even when i dnt think so and thank you for accepting me the way i am, however i won't thank you for teaching me to do funny faces.

like a wise man once said ''we cannot know what the future hold, we can only teach ourselves not to snatch''

you are in my now and i absolutly appreciate every moment of it. my personal gift from God. I love you darling.

Happy Annivarsary His Royal sweetness.


Am allowed to steal a poem right?
too late i stole it already x_x

no longer a dream
Somewhere in my heart beyond all my pride
holds a secret desire so intense, deep inside.
Imprisoned with all my passion and love,
unknown to anyone but the one above.
A desire for someone to cherish and hold,
the need for a love to call my own.

Someone to kiss and make up with after fight.
Someone who can respect all I can be.
Someone who's strong enough to commit and love only me.
Someone who will be there and kiss away my tears, secure my doubts, and release me from all my fears.

Someone I can depend on to be my friend, someone who can restore my faith in love once again.
This love is like a dream yet to come true,
Or so I believed until I found you.

~ Candice S.

Feb 3, 2012

Road to NG

The 2nd FAQ after the 'No' reply to the first FAQ 'Did you work your posting' i heard up until the week of posting was 'Ahan why??' or in the elderly format 'Kilode?'

I've learnt in this my short life that its from one pot of soup to another and no matter how hot it gets, u just gotta live through it *sigh*

I was so excited about the NYSC experience by the time i was leaving school in June/July until i had to worry about where i-was-going-to-be-posted-to which ofcourse was immediatly as people would not let you rest by reminding you everyday *Long Hiss* everywhere i went, all the different people i saw, it was all 'where do you want to be posted to' 'are you working it' 'i hope they don't post you to the north' 'me i won't let you go to the north oh' in different formats, and am there all smiling but if you look really closely you would see i have my hands clasped  against my ears screaming 'Can you all leave me alone and direct your questions to NYSC'

All that constant reminder made me less excited about it all and more worried so when my mum came home one day and said ''take a paper write your full name, call up number and where you want to be posted to, this man is asking for it''  it felt like the time to put an end to the worry and be rest assured of the place, i wrote it quite alright and put Lagos but the paper did not leave my room.

After writing lagos i started asking myself; then whats the point of the scheme? If i stay in lagos it just going to be IT experience all over again, what exactly do i want to achieve this service year? So i pulled out my journal (as usual) and wrote (no editting):

What i want from the NYSC experience.
- Get myself ready for the independent life
-prove to myself that i can make it on my own
-The 'responsible' feeling
-Mentally prepare myself for the life ahead
-Help! Help!! Help!!!
-Visit places
-Devotion to God
-Embrace the whole idea

After all these writing and pondering, i was too sure i wasnt going to work my posting and definatly not to lagos, when i prayed sef i said to God anywhere but lagos; not that i hate lagos that much but the only reason i didnt want lagos is TRAFFIC (@gidiTraffic would understand)
I just pray God would help me achieve all of these by the end of my one year serving the fatherland!

So here i am in Niger State.

sexy  cofer

Crazy  dust

Notice the diff? my nickname was ''water bottle''

we must sha be fine :)

Body Art

My camp crew

love this

and this

Camp fire night

Last day

I got so blackkkk :(

World Aids day

Learnt nu make up skills