... At the foot of the Hill [Psalm 121]

Jan 28, 2013

I get on my knees...

"Its the 24th and I've spent more time on my knees this year than the whole 2012" - Me

I fall on my knees and ask why?
I fall on my knees to understand why?
I fall on my knees to know why you forsake me?
I fall on my knees to know why everyone else sees it except me?
I fall on my knees!

I fall on my knees to remind you that I waited on you for 3days to give me answers?
I fall on my knees to remind you of what you say.
I fall on my knees to wonder why you let me pick my last money to go seek vague answers.
I fall on my knees to wonder.

I fall on my knees to ask why.
I fall on my knees to ask why I'm different?
I fall on my knees to ask why I am so aware of what seems oblivious to the rest of the world?
I fall on my knees to ask why?
I fall on my knees to ask why its when I consciously handed my life over to you it became harder.
I ask why its when I submitted for directions I got nothing!

I fall on my knees to ask.
I fall on my knees to seek.
I fall on my knees to knock.
I fall on my knees and found.
I fall on my knees and the doors Open.
Where is my "given"?
I fall on my knees to take doubt away.

"Maybe you are speaking through the silence" I console myself, but this silence isn't even loud enough!
I fall on my knees again!
I believe in no one else but you.
You've made me happier in the past few month, I know that wasn't me.
So why then would you make me take steps backward?
I fall on my knees again - I ask - Take it all away!

I fall on my knees to say "I'm sorry"
I fall on my knees to declear my love for you
I fall on my knees to praise you.
I fall on my knees Lord!!!

Once again. Take me as I am and do not let go.

Song that I recently stumbled upon "Praise you in the storm - Casting Crowns"

"I'll praise you in this storm, I would lift my hands. You are who you are, no matter where I am. Every tear I cry, you hold in your hands, you never left my side, though my heart is torn, I'll praise you in this storm"

P.S: I wrote this saturday morning after I discovered that I misplaced 500bucks when I checked my pocket trying to pay for the bus, between wondering how I lost the money and convincing myself I did the right thing by not collecting the money offered to me some 15-20mins ago, it all came crashing on me (Don't ask how I got home) funny how I feel a lot happy now, but I still decided to post this, because, people would read and think your life is a bed of roses, its NOT! This is also a reminder to me that I will always fall, what matters is who I turn to when I fall.

P.p.s: I did not cry on the bus! Whoop whoop. Someday, I will tell the story, my story!

What do you do when it all doesn't make sense? Even when God speaks?

Jan 20, 2013

I'm Sorry

"He that is without sin among you cast the first stone at her - Jesus"

"Love your neighbor as you Love yourself" - Jesus

I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry for not saying sorry earlier.
I'm Sorry for not thinking that i had even offended you
I'm Sorry for shoving my faith in your face
I'm Sorry for making you feel like am all perfect.
I'm Sorry for the times i didn't smile at you even when i realised that's all you needed.

I'm Sorry.

I'm sorry for not saying hello when i passed beside you.
I'm sorry for talking behind your back and calling you "weird".
I'm Sorry for not listening when you just wanted to talk and i just kept rambling about myself.
I'm sorry for not saying "Thank You"
I'm Sorry for not saying "Please"


I'm Sorry for shifting away when you sat close to me.
I'm Sorry for not giving when you asked.
I'm Sorry for not giving when i see that you needed and i had.
I'm Sorry for walking past you when you needed someone to help you cross the roads.
I'm Sorry for the sterotypes.

I'm Sorry.

I'm Sorry for walking away because "i didn't have anything to say"
I'm Sorry for laughing at you and calling you "Ugly"
I'm Sorry for not hanging out with you because of "What the world would think"
I'm Sorry for not wiping your tears when i saw them drop.
I'm Sorry for the rude comments.
I'm Sorry for being disobedient.

I'm Sorry.

I'm Sorry for not showing Love like i should.
I'm Sorry for Looking at you through my lens.
I'm Sorry for not looking at you through the God-lens.
I'm Sorry for my un-Christlike Behaviour.

My Name is Oluwatomilola and I AM SORRY


I got the idea to do this on this Blog i found (Please do go through the article)

Jan 15, 2013

Happy Nappy

Hello People, How is the 2013 Journey going? Mine? Lovely :) So, i've been meaning to do this and since i had alot of time on my hands today i decided to go through my pictures to share my Natural hair Journey. Hope You guys enjoy it :)

Journey so far!

My hair was really long before i semi-big chopped it, but when you are in the north with the weather and not knowing what to do with your hair and it starts breaking, your next instinct is to cut it off. Well thats what i did, now let me walk you through my journey.

Long hair :)


 I Cut it the first time and i felt it was still too long and cut it lower a few days later.


TWA.. Does this length count?


I love Twist outs



Wash and go afro

Twist out fro-hawk

The best styles... The fro-hawk got me attention!!

Twist-outs and Afro

Kinky Afro!

Protective Styles!

Call it bad hair days... x_x

That is my Natural hair Journey so far... Getting ready to rock my Semi-big Afro!!! Yaaaay!! I LOVE MY KINKY HAIR!!!!!

Black and Proud.

Jan 4, 2013

NewYear Highness!!!

This is my sister and i goofing around tonight and i thought i should share.... we didnt drink anything. Too much happiness in the system, i guess! This time i am shyyyyyyyyyy X_X

Hope you enjoyed my dancing video

Jan 3, 2013

Why you should Masturbate.

Hi Everyone. Happy New Year.

*Awkward Silence*

Yes, you read right, okay. Honestly there is a huge invisible NOT between should and Masturbate, you can all contribute your sighs of relief here \______/
I just needed to arouse your curiosity, How did I fair?

Don't go Just yet na. Hang around alil more.

On a more serious note, we always look for justification for our addictions so, atleast that would give us some form of 5-mins fix that we are not so bad afterall "misery needs company" right? And after that? We are back to square one

Don't stop reading, I'm heading somewhere :)

We are all addicts of some sort, whatever/whoever it is we are addicted to good stuff or bad stuff, in this case we younger ones find ourselves in this mostly, It simply starts with and experiment next thing you know you are neck deep, the sad part is, its a closet addiction and very few people would have the courage to confess to a friend about it.

After every "closet-session" there is always the feeling of emptiness, Guilt, helplessness, hopelessness and for the extreme cases Nothing.

Good News? Your case is NOT helpless you asked why? Glad you did.

" But God has shown us how much he loves us—it was while we were still sinners that Christ died for us!" Romans 5:8

"....... His Love endures forever" Psalms 136

".........the lord is full of compassion and mercy" James 5:10

I have Just 2 reasons why I think you should Not masturbate again, and I'm sorry but I would go hard.

"There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed or hidden that will not be made known" Luke 2:2

"I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do nothing.
But I will show you whom you should fear: fear him who, after killing of the body, has the power to throw you into hell, Yes, I tell you, fear him" Luke 2:4

So How should be done to battle the addiction?

"They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. Sanctify them by the truth; Your word is truth
For them I sanctify myself, that they too may be truly sanctified" John 17:16-17 & 19

Read the Bible. 

"What the Law could not do, because human nature was weak, God did. He condemned sin in human nature by sending his own Son, who came with a nature like our sinful nature, to do away with sin
God did this so that the righteous demands of the Law might be fully satisfied in us who live according to the Spirit, and not according to human nature

You however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the spirit, if the spirit of God lives in you, and if anyone does not have the spirit of christ, he doesn't belong to christ." Romans 8: 3-4 &9
Let the Spirit help.

You don't think you can?

"In all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. Romans 8:37

You can beat this addiction through Christ, I believe in you.

If you are still reading this to this point there is a reason, use the comment box and let me know if you are struggling with this or any other addiction and think this can help or you know someone, ofcourse you can comment anonymously.

Thanks for sticking around!