It was my first time. I only needed this time to throw into the ocean what had been an abomination to me previously. Just this one time.
I got caught...
17, I met and started to experience these specie of human beings. The unsatisfied, the greedy, the perv Specie of the homo sapiens or like my sister will call them "Dirty Old men". I got the occasional winks. "Let me drop you by your house" and all that was fine until it became within close proximity.
18, I started an Internship. First day of work, met with my line manager, supervisor and overall Manager of the Department. It all started with little campaigns as entrusting me with the key to his office, commenting on my innocent look, asking to be his typist in my spare time leading to me earning his Trust - Maybe a little too much, so much that he left a pornographic clip playing in one of his 'Come and stay in my office while I go out' routines and said "Whatever you see there should not leave this Office"
I was wise enough to run before he demanded I do what I saw in the video clip...
I got dragged to the Master...
19, I started my 2nd Internship uncermoniously. On a faithful day, walking into his office to report some work done, He 'pinned' me to the wall in his office. Trying to convince me to kiss him, he placed his hand on his member trying to show me his hard-on.
"Look what you've caused" He said.
I managed to free myself from the 'pin down' without kissing him. Few days later, 2 cute boys and a woman with a protruding belly walked into the office, they were his family but he hadn't been wearing a ring.
"I noticed your countenance dropped when you saw my boys, you didn't do anything. You shouldn't feel bad" was what he said to me when he called me later in the evening.
I was disgusted.
I fell to my knees...
20, Messages going back and forth. I like him, He likes me. He also has a family.
We are not having an affair, we just acknowledge and a couple of flirtatious text messages and calls doesn't do anybody any harm. It was only a matter of time before we took the 'passion' out of the text messages and into reality. It felt good, good enough for me to meet up a 2nd time and a 3rd...
4:00pm Friday, 24th August, 2001
Deb: Hey You.
P: I was just thinking about you
Deb: really? What about?
P: I miss your lips
P: Available tomorrow?
Deb: Yes, Time?
P: 6pm. Rm 256. Same place.
Deb: See you Then.
. . .
On the door.
"Are you expecting anyone?" I asked as I stood up to open the door. Once I unbolted the door it flung open and shouts filled the atmosphere.
'They' dragged me to this mysterious looking man
I fell to my knees...
I fell to my knees in his presence drowning in the guilt and thought of what will befall me in a minute or 2, he turned his back to 'them' that dragged me down to him after saying something to them that I didn't hear and gradually the shouts died down and you could hear them leave, one after the other. I trembled and still couldn't lift up my head.
I flinched when he tapped me.
"Where are they that accuse you? Has no one condemned you?"
Still confused at what just happened or who this man is "No" I replied
"Neither do I, Go and Sin no more"
I stood up and glanced with curiosity at what he scribbled on the sand
I looked up at him again and he smiled and said
"I know all"
***Cumi is based on a true life story using John 8:1-11 as a backbone***
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