A Tear for everytime I hear my name.
A Tear for when I don't.
A Tear for everytime I see your face.
A Tear for everytime I don't.
A Tear for Love.
A Tear for Love Lost.
A Tear for every Win.
A Tear for every Mistake.
A Tear for every Memory Gained.
A Tear for every Memory lost.
A Tear for Success.
A Tear for Failure
A Tear for being heard.
A Tear for being misunderstood.
A Tear for every Laugh.
A Tear for every Cry.
A Tear for Tomorrow.
A Tear for Yesterday.
A Tear for every Joy.
A Tear for every Pain.
Either ways I have a 1000 Tears.
This is Dedicated to people like me, who only know how to express Joy, Anger, Pain etc. with Tears.
I flipped through the pages for my bible to the passage i heard as the bible reading for the service which reads
1 John 3:7-9 Little children, let no man deceive you: he that doeth righteousness is righteous, even as he is righteous.
He that committeth sin is of the devil; for the devil sinneth from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil. Whosoever is born of God doth not commit sin; for his seed remaineth in him: and he cannot sin, because he is born of God.
Did you also get the eye-opening reaction it got after reading this?
My ever over-active mind just slapped me with ''So madame you are of the devil'' as i'm trying to convince myself that 'm not i asked myself
What Can be qualified as sin gaan? I don't steal, lie, fornicate, commit adultry, kill but ofcourse i still know i'm far from righteous.
Still having my inner sober reflection when the pastor comes up and gives the answer to my question.
Sin is disobedience of Gods word.
Okay i knew that but the question was did i know God's word?
The word in Romans 1: 29-32 Clearly states what God loathe
wickedness, evil, greed, greed, envy, murder, strife, deceit, malice, gossips, slanders, God-haters, insolent, arrogant, boastful, those that invent ways of doing evil, those that disobey their parents, senslessness, faithlessness
Also in colossians 3: 5-9 We have Anger, Rage, Malice, Slander, Filthy Language, Sexual Impurities, Lust, Evil desire, greed.
And Just like me, alot of us have forgotten that Sin isn't just about Stealing or killing there are alot more ''little'' words that we fail to obey.
I read here( joeyeparker.wordpress.com/2012/06/18/strive-for-perfection/ ) about perfection, trying to erase in our minds the notion we have that nobody can be perfect, that only makes us give up, however in as much as we are not perfect we should acknowledge our imperfect state and strive for perfection, that way we would always want to be better versions of ourselves.
Correlation you might ask..
Yes, when we stop acting all ''righteous'' and acknowledge that we are falling for little sins as unforgiveness, greed, anger etc.. Then we would be able to sit up, repent, stop being of the devil and move on to the narrow path.
"When other people become your source of happiness, you begin to be unhappy"
"Never let your happiness depend on things, situations and people for as history tells us, things, situations and people do and will always change"
These quotes I read off twitter started my half-thoughts (as I would like to call 'em) because I'm still don't understand.
How exactly is the right way to be happy?
The way people open up their mouth and say this is What or what not to make one happy beats me.
As children all we just needed were toys, food, time to play and parents that would be there when they need more, to be happy right? Or what other worry do they have? School? Oh please..
When we grow older our parents became uncool, started going to church because your parents wanted us to go, school stress, friend wahala different reasons to be unhappy started showing up from nowhere right?
Disclaimer: This is me just generalising, ofcourse I'm aware there would be exceptions.
I know God is the ultimate giver of happiness, but truthfully how many of us understood this growing up? So what did we do? Found the happiness with someone or things we liked or stuffs we bought right?
Either ways the "someone" & "Something" factor was there right? Although the happiness was short-lived but it was there.
Someone always says this to me
"no one can make u happy. Real happiness is from within"
My own confusion here is, even if you get "within happiness" does someone or something not have something to do with it?
And what is this "happiness from within"? What exactly does it entail?
I. Post the rules.
II. You must post 11 things about yourself.
III. Answer the questions that your tagger posted for you.
IV. Create 11 questions,the choose 11 people & tag them to answer your questions.
V. Remember to let them know you tagged them,No tag backs.
VI. Let the tagger know when you answer their questions
11 Random Things About me
1. I use just Red and black pens Biros
2. I love my space(although i don't mind sharing), My music, my
notepad
3. Love wedges *dreamy eyes*
4. I get interested in boys stuff sometimes, okay most times
-_-
5 I get emotionally attached to almost all my stuff makes it
so hard to let go.
6 I love reading when i'm not busy staring at my phone
(which is all the time) X_X
7 I play Kirk Francklin's songs when i feel down , he just
knows how to get you back up with his lyrics. God Bless Kirk Franklin
8 In a group of unfamiliar people, I'm that girl sitting in
the corner observing (when I'm not looking at my phone of course) although my
friends would swear i am the naughtiest person on earth.
9. I want a power bike why? Just for the trips *insert slow
motion here* all black leather, zooms in, removes helmet, shakes long hair
*cut* watching too many action movies, but you get my drift ryt? :)
10. Did i mention i love reading? OK... Its just so
important that's all, love learning new things
11. I'm a hopeless romantic. I can love for Africa (When i
do love) i have a few people on my list.
12. I absolutely love making-up and dressing up. I have
dress-up Saturdays sometimes, where i make-up, dress up and take pictures maybe
i should even share on here sef ;)
13. I'm a list freak, i don't feel organized till i make a
list. To-do, to-buy, to-save, to-*insert anything do-able here* its endless
oh? 11 right? *shrugs* is that not why we are here??? To
break the rules? No? Ok.
Moving On
Answers to Ay's Question
1) How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Shoes?? Hmmm.... Where i am right now, i have 8 pairs of
footwear pls lets not add the ones at home so i don't look like a...... :)
2) Name three places in the world you would love to visit
I just wanna go anywhere that has a nice beach, water fall, breath taking highlands
you know and all that nature stuff #Bliss
3) What is your best food?
Garri and anything (Sugar, milk,fish, stew, meat Etc)
4) What would you do if you had just 24 hours left on earth?
Wow huge question. If i am where i am today? I would take
a plane home that's 51/5 hrs spent traveling, spend 10hrs with my family,
reminding them of how much i love and appreciate them and writing out how i
want my small money to be spent not forgetting to drop all my passwords then
spend the remaining hours with the bf, Say a prayer and Sleep.
5) Do you believe in love at first sight?
Love at first sight? No! Attraction at first sight? Yes!
Love at first talk? Maybe.
6) What is your beauty regime?
Can i laugh pls? Loooooool beauty regime? Whats that?
Don't lemmie bring my razzness into this blog, too late? :( Errmm I'm the local
soap kinda girl, I don't have a ''particular'' body cream (Once i see ''for dry
skin'' and its not ridiculously expensive, i pick it up), body spray (anything
for men works for me), perfume(its perfume right? bring it) but i do take my make-up seriously, Brown
powder,concealer, lip gloss, lip stick, eyeliner, mascara what else? Hair?
Recently gone natural so I'm still getting a hang of it, don't have products
for my hair yet so does this count as beauty something?? :D
7) At what age did you start school?
Did you say start school? How am i supposed to know? I
only have vivid memory from SS1 - Date the rest? Blurrr.... Lemmie ask *BBMing
Mumsi* OK. She says ''Education never ends'' Don't know what the heck that
means *shrugs* Lets do the maths shall we? I'm 21 now - Serving 4 years Uni, 7
years Sec. Sch, 5 years primary Sch, 2 years Nur Sch that's 21- 4 - 7 - 5 - 2
=?? Oya bring out your calculator you know you wanna ;)
8. How did you spend Christmas last year?
Is there another way to spend Christmas in naija than
with family? But if you asked before Christmas last year there might just be
some interesting stuff to tell but since you didn't ask :x
9. Do you consider yourself an introvert or an extrovert?
Yeah i'ld consider myself an introvert
10. Have you ever been caught up in a physical fight with anyone?
Physical Fight? I have a mental sticky note that reminds
me of how small i am and how it would take just 5Secs to get ,e bleeding, So
No! Not in this lifetime or the next.
11.What do you love about blogs ville?
Love that i can come here and write stuff for beautiful
people to read and the amount of talent you get to see? AMAZING....
My Questions
1. What movie did you watch last?
2. Would you describe yourself as romantic? Why?
3.would you adopt a child? Why?
4.What was your childhood fantasy?
5.How much did your last shoe cost?
6.If you got a one month all expense paid trip for 2 who
would you ask to go with you?
8. 9jagreat he always has a different angle.
9. Gistdotcom sisi yemmie, her gists and foood!!
10. kitkat Although she doesn't blog much again, her "tales" are off the hook
11. chizzyk - go here for your gossip ;)
*Phew*
I think I've known you all my life,
Can't remember the first time we met personally tho'
I just remember daddy warning me against you,
I was a rebel so it felt good to go against him.
I was curious,
It lead to the greatest love affair.
I would sneak to have a piece of you,
Sometimes I got caught,
I was scolded, I didn't mind, the time spent with you although short was worth it.
I was in love.
The undiluted joy I feel whenever its time to see you,
The butterflies in my tummy,
The feeling of satisfaction and fulfilment I get from being with you,
I know you are irreplaceable.
Mummy was always quiet, she noticed the love I guess but she thought I would outgrow it,
But here I am; 21 still haven't "out grown" you,
She is tired. He doesn't scold me anymore too.
He has accepted our love affair.
He now understands,
Understands that the love I have for
Garri would remain.
*Dodging Tomatoes* Ok! Ok! I know..... :p :p :p :D
P.S: This was supposed to be an "update post" but I changed my mind. I got a tag from the lovely miss ay, walahi I've written it out in my note book oh, the issue now is typing it, would post it before friday next week. Fair enough? I thought so too... :)
P.P.S: I also have this story I've been working on for a while (I actually abandoned it) its still not finished, but I'ld post the first part so you guys can tell me if I shld hang my writing pen or just finish the _damn thing :)
P.P.P.S(is there even anything like this?): Notice the template change? What do you think??? Pls Go easy on me oo.. It takes a lot of courage to change anything in my life... I guess you'ld know why soon
*Now doing the dance* DON'T ask why :p :p
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