Recovered - My Testimony

I must have mentioned how much God answers prayers on this blog before, He did it again this morning, I would mention later in this post.

***Disclaimer: The title has more to do with 1samuel 30:18 than it actually has to do with this post, there are somethings i don't understand too***

Anyways, straight to what God did for me. Since God met with me in the dusty town of Kontagora (click to read the story) i have been basking in his Love, learning and craving more of him. I've become so spiritually ambitious, Me sef i know i am x_x

That aside, the first week of this month was easily the hardest i had to go through.

It started on the Monday, 1st of July. During the day i started feeling a pain on my left arm and at first i thought it was because of the air conditioning, i endured through the day hoping that it won't last long.

Fast forward to like 20:00 and i've had dinner already and i was doing my round of reading for the night, the pain came back, just on a particular spot on my arm. Soon i was feeling numb, from my legs gradually my arms and i just laid there, looking up at the ceiling and balling my eyes out.

The engulfing feeling of it being the end was all around me, I have never felt anything so strong, Imagine if you know that you won't wake up the next day?  at that time i could not pray(and i still don't know why) a few minutes later as if a bulb was turned on in my head, I dragged my self to my feet(numbness and all) and i started praying, didn't know what i was praying for or against but i prayed, spoke in tongues and cried till my soul felt content, it felt like i was given a breather. the pain relieved me and i was feeling a lil better but that voice will not stop telling me that it was the end.

with the little strength i wrote somethings down in my journal, telling God that i didn't understand what was going on in my body, psalm 23 and little goodbye notes to everyone that mattered to me with tears streaming down my eyes (If they ever found the journal that is)

Trust me, it was not easy at all, i felt stupid for writing it and at the same time i felt really convinced that it was the end, i thought of not sleeping at all, but i prayed some more and some more till i slept off.

I woke up, without pain, without the numbness.
i wrote
"I don't know whats wrong with my body, please save me" and he did exactly that.

The rest of that week wasn't so much fun and all but i went through it with Gods help, by Friday i can in his presence rejoicing and now more than ever sure why he has me here and pumped to get it all done before its time to go home to him.

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"Dear God,

Who are you? 
Thats all i want to know. make known yourself to me who you are, your essence, your principles, your process, your works, your power, your majesty, your all. Everything. Let me know who you are.

Your daughter,
Tomilola"

This was me yesterday, some guts i have right? but i have just been on this journey with him and listening to different peoples opinion of who God is, it was just enough for me and i wanted to hear from him myself. i wrote this having absolutely no idea that he would respond the way he did and so quickly.

I know i still said the prayer this morning, but still didn't expect an answer.

There are so many things i know that my mind can't still wrap around. he came through less than 24 hours later after writing.

This morning i was chatting with my best friend and still teasing him that he got to work early as its never the case with him *side eye* (not like he would read this sef) and out of the blue he sends me this bible verse, let me point out that Sope doesn't send me Bible verses like that unless the need arises which has been just once in recent time.

Amos 4:13(KJV)
For, lo, he that formeth the mountains, and createth the wind, and declareth unto man what is his thought, that maketh the morning darkness, and treadeth upon the high places of the earth, The Lord, The God of hosts, is his name.

(CEV)

I created the mountains and the wind. I let humans know what I am thinking. I bring darkness at dawn and step over hills. I am the Lord God All-Powerful!

I paused and asked why he sent me the verse and he said he had no idea and i instantly told him that i knew why he did, and told him about my question to God and he was marveled. Now, as i am still wrapping my head around the fact that GOD just told me who he is, by himself in all his GLORY and POWER, i've been smiling sheepishly like a mumu all day and to think that my relationship with him is just beginning. Jeeeeez! Is he not amazing? 

Song of the day: I stand in awe of you - Hillsong

P.S: Someone unexpected decided to go through my 23 before 24 list and is helping me achieve 2 of the things on that list by next weekend and i also got gifts this year, books, make-up, shoes, cake, pizza, drivers licence and above all i got a deeper relationship with my father.

What more could a girl want? 
Now are you going to praise God with me?!?

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Birthday Post: Without You

I don't know where i would be without you.

Lover of my soul.

Without you, Lost.

Without you, Worthless.

Without you, Clueless.

Without you, empty.

Without you, dead.

Without you, foolish.

Without you, penniless.

Without you, depressed.

Without you, sad.

Without you, no pen.

Without you, darkness.

what will i do without you?

king of kings.

My Best friend.

I really can't do without you.

I can't live without you.

Awesome Lord,

Wonderful Father.

Creator.

Whats my life without you?

Thank you for sticking with me, even through my unfaithfulness.

I want to always be with you.

I Love you.

Thank you for another year. 

Teach me how you want me to spend it.

This my song dedicated to my Lover!!

I am coming back to give my testimony as i won't be in my church for sunday!!
Started getting gifts from the beginning of the week. I'm still receiving gifts oh. 

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PINEAPPLE AND GROUNDNUT STIR-FRY BY Vegan Nigerian

Hello People,

I know i want to make healthier choices, i might just be taking it to a whole new level by going vegan. I stopped taking sugar like over 2-3months now (lost count) I stopped drinking garri (Who would've thunk it?) But my love for garri cannot fade away.. I got a new bowl for my garri.

Found out about the VeganNigerian about a month ago, and i'm glad i did check out her blog. So, i decided to try out this recipe.

What i love about her recipes is that, Its so easy to make and not ingredients that you have to walk the whole of lagos to look for.

Find the link to the recipe here

This is my own result :)

I added alot more pepper to my own, Still Loved it. Would def make it again and again and again......

NO... I'm not turning into a food blog!!!!!!

P.S: My birthday is on Friday and i am accepting gifts, send a mail to me for the address oh. :)

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#TruthSeries: In God's Eyes II

This is a continuation, read the first here

Then Jane ran off to dance with her boyfriend. I stood there in silence. A few minutes later, my friend Paul joined me. "He's sure having a lot of fun" he said
"who is having a lot of fun?" I asked
"Your father. He's having a ball"
"Yeah. i guess" I didn't know what else to say.
"You know, he's always been there," Paul said. "I remember when you and i were on the soccer team. He tried out as coach, but he couldn't run up and down the field, remember? so they picked Jackie's father. But your dad still showed up for every game. He was the team's biggest fan. I think he's the reason we won so many games. Without him, it would just have been Jackie's father yelling at us. Your father made it fun. I wish my father had come to atleast one of our games. He was always too busy"

I was once again speechless.

My boyfriend came back with two glasses of punch and handed me one.
"What do you think of my father?" i asked out of the blue.
Terry looked surprised. "I like him. i always have"

"Then why did you call him names when we were kids?"

"I don't know. Because he was different, and i was a dumb kid"

"When did you stop calling him names?" I asked, searching my own memory.
Terry didn't even need to think "The day he sat down with me by the pool and hugged me while i cried about my mother and fathers divorce. No one else would let me talk about it. I was hurting, and he could feel it. He cried with me that day. I thought you knew"

I looked at Terry, a tear rolled down my cheek as long-forgotten memories cascaded into my consciousness. When i was three, another dog killed my puppy, and my father was there to hold me and teach me what happens when our pets die. When i was five, my father took me to my first day of school. I was so scared, so was he. We cried that first day the next day he became a teacher's helper.
When i was eight, i just couldn't do math. Father sat down with me every night and we worked until math became easy for me. When i was ten, my father bought me a brand new bike, When it was stolen because i didn't lock it up, my father gave me jobs around the house so i could earn enough money for another one.
When I was thirteen and my first love broke up with me, my father was there to yell at, blame, and to cry with. When i was fifteen and got to be in the honor society, my father was there to see me get the accolade. Now, when i was seventeen, he put up with me no matter how nasty i became or how high my hormones raged.

As I looked at my father dancing enthusiastically with my friends, a big toothy grin on his face, i suddenly saw him differently. The handicaps weren't his-they were mine! I had spent much of my life hating the man who loved me. I hated the exterior and ignored the interior that contained his God given heart. i felt ashamed.

I asked Terry to take me home, too overcome with feelings to remain.
On graduation day, i stood behind the podium as the valedictorian of my class. As i looked over the audience, my gaze rested on my father in the front row. He sat in his only specially made suit, holding my mother's hand and smiling. I was overcome with emotion as i began my speech

"Today i stand here as an honor student, able to graduate with 4.0 average, I didn't do it alone. God was there, and i had friends and teachers, and counselors who helped. If i were to thank just them, i would leave out the most important person in my life: my father"

i saw the look of complete shock cover my father's face. i motioned for him yo join me on stage. He made his way slowly, awkwardly, and deliberatly. He had to drag his left foot up the stairs as he used his deformed right arm to balance his gait. As he stood next to me at the podium, i took his small, crippled hands in mine and held it tight.

"Sometimes we only see the silhouette of the people around us" I said "For years I was as shallow as the silhouette i saw. I saw my father as someone to make fun of, someone to blame, and someone to be ashamed of. He wasn't perfect, like the fathers my friends had. three weeks ago, i found out while i was envying my friend's fathers, my friends were envying mine. that made me look at who i was and what i had become"

Then i turned to face my father
"Father, i owe you a big apology. i based my love for you on what i saw and not what i felt. i forgot to look at the one part of you that meant the most, the big, big heart God gave you. As i move out of high school and into life, i want you to know i could not have had a better father. You are always there for me no matter how badly i hurt you, you still showed up. Thank you!"

I took off my mortarboard and placed it on his head. "You are the reason i am standing here, you deserve this honor, not me"

And the audience applauded and cried with up, i felt God's light shinning upon me as i embraced my father more warmly than i ever had before, tears unashamedly falling down both our faces.

For the first time, i saw my father through God'd eyes, and i felt honored to be seen with him.

Culled from Journeys of Love 30 true stories

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Wordless: God is Love

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#TruthSeries: In God's Eyes

My dad was ugly, and i knew it. By the time i was ten, I was totally ashamed of my father. My friends called him names: Quasimodo, hunchback, monster, little Frankenstein, the crooked little man. At first it hurt when they called him those things, but soon i agreed with them.

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My father was born with parastremmatic dwarfism. The disease made him stop growing when he was about thirteen and caused his body to twist into a grotesque shape. When he was my age, pictures show him as a little short but good-looking. When he married my mother at nineteen, he still looked normal. He walked with a slight limp but could do just about anything. He was even a great dancer.

Soon after my birth, another genetic disorder took over, and his left foot started turning out, almost backward. His head and neck shifted to the right; his neck became rigid and he looked over his left shoulder a bit. His right arm curled in and up, and his index finger almost touched his elbow. His spine warped to look something like a roller coaster, causing his torso to lie sideways

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Twenty Three before Twenty Four

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Hello Beautiful People,

Happy New Month!!! The first week was easily the most difficult week of the year, why? I really can't tell but i am at the foot of the hill looking up to get answers - One thing is for sure though. Gods got me BIG time, i can feel it!

Enough about me, i found on Kovie's blog the 26 things she wants to do before she turns 27, i want to join the band wagon. Although i have goals for the year and i have NOT achieved half of it, but ofcourse this isn't a pity party. Here is a list of 23 things of the things i want to do before i turn 24. For some reason in my head i am turning 25 this year, is that a good thing? I think not.

*Says silent prayer* I bind every spirit that wants to age quickly by fire in Jesus name. *Screams LOUD AMEN*

now unto the 25  23 things.

1. Have a book with my Name on the cover as the writer
   
2. Get an Apartment
   
3. ****
4. Design my Website
5. My DSLR
   
6. Own a Business
7. Road trip to a waterfall
   
8. Jerusalem
   
9. Go karting x_x
   
10. Go for a book signing
11. Own and Read ALL Ted Dekker's books
12. Road Trip to different states to take pictures
13. Make-up haul
14. Make a book shelf for my journals/books

    

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15. ***
16. Stop storing too many Biros
17. Write by the river side
18. Go to a beach - finally
19. Candle lit dinner
    
20. Synopsis for the other Books
21. ***
22. Meet TYBello, Ted Dekker(Ambitions yh? Watch God make it happen) & Tyler Perry
    
23. Anything God wants me to do
    

*** These are really really important things i want to do that i don't want to talk about or put out there YET. All in due time.

Its my birthday on the 26th, Whooop! Let the 365 days commence. This should be fun.   

P.s: I'm working on a couple peoples stories under the #TruthSeries that are quite emotional and its kinda taking more time than i thought. Still, watch out, and if you don't know what truth series is all about click here and if you want to participate this is all you have to do:

This is open to whoever wants to participate just like "Series of Scars" (Btw, Thanks to all that sent in their stories then) Lets do it again shall we?

How do i want this to work?

• Send in a story either telling us a truth about you or the truth about a difficult decision you've had to make or a difficult situation you found yourself that can encourage someone out there. 
• Share this post to give more people the opportunity to tell their stories (We are all here to learn right? I know i want to)
• Share and Share again ;)
• Send to tomi.akibo@gmail.com and if you feel the truth is delicate and confidential, let me know so i would post anonymously. 
• Let encourage one another, one thing i've learnt is that whatever we go through we are not alone. Lets prove it. your story is what one person might need to hear.

Thanks in Advance.

God bless you.

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