JESUS!

Good Morning Jesus,

I don't know if i can ask "How are you?" does anyone ask that these days? How is your father? Our father? Isn't it amazing how this tiny me gets to share the same HOLY father with you, just because of you. I really didn't plan to get to the gratitude part just yet.

I'm sure you must be wondering why i'm writing to you as i never really talk to you, but ofcourse you know why already. But i will go into it anyways.
The reason i decided to write to you is because, over the past few weeks i discovered that i really don't know you. I've heard of you. I believe in you. I believe in your purpose of coming to the earth. I believe that you have the power to save, redeem, heal, to resurrect, all of that. There is a possibility that admist all what i think i know and believe that i truly don't know who you are? Right?

I Thought so too.

God and i have been back and forth, not really. I have been going back and forth with God in this chase, and i have been so caught up in that and everytime i hear someone say your name, i just feel.... "I don't really know him indepth"

Does this even make sense?
Now, I'm not done with this chase. Its a beautiful experience, i just feel like i have a relationship with the father and not you - yet you made that relationship possible - and i seemed to have relegated you to the background somehow, in my own how.

Thinking of the mind blowing three-in-one and One-in-three relationship/fellowship you have with the father and the holyspirt and still being able to maintain the uniqueness of personalities, i wonder where that has me. This is where my confusion lies.

How can i have you inside of me and not know you? How can that fellowship be complete when its broken by my lack of knowledge? How can the relationship sail smoothly when the captain is not acknowledged for his skills? How can i have a not-so-personal-personal-saviour? 

Does any of this even make sense? 

I don't even know what it means to know God and not know you. I don't know how i know that i don't know you - that's not important - all i know is now? I want to know.

I know you are waiting to teach me all about you and i am asking that you help me unlearn and learn about you, i just don't want to be the girl that says she knows about you and i can't stand boldly when its time to really talk and show other people who you are. I can't be that girl.

"I know my iniquities are many...but do this for your name sake" Jer 14:7, Have mercy on me and teach me all about you. 

Thank you so much for being there and being faithful to your name. Thank you for always listening. Thank you for being you and doing all you did on the cross, this is the only reason why we have the boldness to go to the father. 

I am also grateful for the new relationship we have now. I am glad and can't wait to walk in the manifestation of this new revelation of who you are and the power behind your name.

Your daughter and Friend,

'Tomilola.

Is this just me? Or is there also someone out there that feels like they don't really really know Jesus as much as they say?

or Can you even have a relationship with God and not have one with Jesus?

Please, Lets talk. 
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