Feb 18, 2013
Feb 14, 2013
(K)night Walker
Shining below, the numerous stars and the smiling moon.
I had to walk under this beautiful scene,
I let my legs sink into the sands and with every step, I felt a lot more confident than the last.
I envied you, I wanted that,
You turned and looked in my direction,
The unmistakable blue eyes drew me closer.
No words.
You looked and saw my soul
Feb 5, 2013
Random-Rants
Happy February 2013. Truthfully, this is not a rant. I don't have a title and i have many random stuff i want to write about and i have one update to give by popular demand (How i got home) from my last post.
Here it goes;
- I am trying to write now, a friend of mine wants to help me get a writing gig and asked me to write something and i promised to write it today and send it by Tuesday (Which is today because its past 00:00) anyways, after prayer today, i had the perfect story-line-ish to write about, I write better in the middle of the night so i ''postponed'' to my creative hours then...... My Biro stopped working *Sigh* I've gone to everywhere in this house to check for a red or black biro, i didn't find, I. WONT. USE. BLUE. BIRO. (the devil is a liar) *Hot tears* i decided to type directly from my brain, it just never comes out right :( I'm getting a new biro tomorrow, well if i get the money! -_____-
- Big girls don't cry, Yes. The fact has been established now abi? who is arguing with you? But who said i was a big girl? X__X I cried! Not because i was sad or anything but out of gratitude, and surprise. I went through my blog and realised how personal this blog is, wow! i've really put myself out there on here, but i'm so grateful because i can come back here look back and see how far i have come! i cried.. silent cry that just means "Thank You"
- Ever been praying about somethings and for some people and you can watch you prayers for other people being answered and you are wondering "Lord, you need to go back and see my request list errmmmm....i also said ask for something(s), why did you skip that part?" Well.... I think i need to have another talk with God. :)
Jan 28, 2013
I get on my knees...
I fall on my knees and ask why?
I fall on my knees to understand why?
I fall on my knees to know why you forsake me?
I fall on my knees to know why everyone else sees it except me?
I fall on my knees!
I fall on my knees to remind you that I waited on you for 3days to give me answers?
I fall on my knees to remind you of what you say.
I fall on my knees to wonder why you let me pick my last money to go seek vague answers.
I fall on my knees to wonder.
I fall on my knees to ask why.
I fall on my knees to ask why I'm different?
I fall on my knees to ask why I am so aware of what seems oblivious to the rest of the world?
I fall on my knees to ask why?
I fall on my knees to ask why its when I consciously handed my life over to you it became harder.
I ask why its when I submitted for directions I got nothing!
I fall on my knees to ask.
I fall on my knees to seek.
I fall on my knees to knock.
I fall on my knees and found.
I fall on my knees and the doors Open.
Where is my "given"?
I fall on my knees to take doubt away.
"Maybe you are speaking through the silence" I console myself, but this silence isn't even loud enough!
I fall on my knees again!
I believe in no one else but you.
You've made me happier in the past few month, I know that wasn't me.
So why then would you make me take steps backward?
I fall on my knees again - I ask - Take it all away!
I fall on my knees to say "I'm sorry"
I fall on my knees to declear my love for you
I fall on my knees to praise you.
I fall on my knees Lord!!!
Once again. Take me as I am and do not let go.
Song that I recently stumbled upon "Praise you in the storm - Casting Crowns"
"I'll praise you in this storm, I would lift my hands. You are who you are, no matter where I am. Every tear I cry, you hold in your hands, you never left my side, though my heart is torn, I'll praise you in this storm"
P.S: I wrote this saturday morning after I discovered that I misplaced 500bucks when I checked my pocket trying to pay for the bus, between wondering how I lost the money and convincing myself I did the right thing by not collecting the money offered to me some 15-20mins ago, it all came crashing on me (Don't ask how I got home) funny how I feel a lot happy now, but I still decided to post this, because, people would read and think your life is a bed of roses, its NOT! This is also a reminder to me that I will always fall, what matters is who I turn to when I fall.
P.p.s: I did not cry on the bus! Whoop whoop. Someday, I will tell the story, my story!
What do you do when it all doesn't make sense? Even when God speaks?
Jan 20, 2013
I'm Sorry
"Love your neighbor as you Love yourself" - Jesus
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry for not saying sorry earlier.
I'm Sorry for not thinking that i had even offended you
I'm Sorry for shoving my faith in your face
I'm Sorry for making you feel like am all perfect.
I'm Sorry for the times i didn't smile at you even when i realised that's all you needed.
I'm Sorry.
I'm sorry for not saying hello when i passed beside you.
I'm sorry for talking behind your back and calling you "weird".
I'm Sorry for not listening when you just wanted to talk and i just kept rambling about myself.
I'm sorry for not saying "Thank You"
I'm Sorry for not saying "Please"
I. AM. SORRY
I'm Sorry for shifting away when you sat close to me.
I'm Sorry for not giving when you asked.
I'm Sorry for not giving when i see that you needed and i had.
I'm Sorry for walking past you when you needed someone to help you cross the roads.
I'm Sorry for the sterotypes.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry for walking away because "i didn't have anything to say"
I'm Sorry for laughing at you and calling you "Ugly"
I'm Sorry for not hanging out with you because of "What the world would think"
I'm Sorry for not wiping your tears when i saw them drop.
I'm Sorry for the rude comments.
I'm Sorry for being disobedient.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry for not showing Love like i should.
I'm Sorry for Looking at you through my lens.
I'm Sorry for not looking at you through the God-lens.
I'm Sorry for my un-Christlike Behaviour.
My Name is Oluwatomilola and I AM SORRY
P.S:
I got the idea to do this on this Blog i found (Please do go through the article)
Jan 15, 2013
Happy Nappy
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| Journey so far! |
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| Transition! |
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| TWA |
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| TWA.. Does this length count? |
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| TWA |
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| I love Twist outs |
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| Mini-Afro |
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| Twist-out |
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| Wash and go afro |
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| Twist out fro-hawk |
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| The best styles... The fro-hawk got me attention!! |
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| Twist-outs and Afro |
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| Kinky Afro! |
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| Protective Styles! |
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| Call it bad hair days... x_x |
Jan 4, 2013
NewYear Highness!!!
Jan 3, 2013
Why you should Masturbate.
*Awkward Silence*
Yes, you read right, okay. Honestly there is a huge invisible NOT between should and Masturbate, you can all contribute your sighs of relief here \______/
I just needed to arouse your curiosity, How did I fair?
Don't go Just yet na. Hang around alil more.
On a more serious note, we always look for justification for our addictions so, atleast that would give us some form of 5-mins fix that we are not so bad afterall "misery needs company" right? And after that? We are back to square one
Don't stop reading, I'm heading somewhere :)
We are all addicts of some sort, whatever/whoever it is we are addicted to good stuff or bad stuff, in this case we younger ones find ourselves in this mostly, It simply starts with and experiment next thing you know you are neck deep, the sad part is, its a closet addiction and very few people would have the courage to confess to a friend about it.
After every "closet-session" there is always the feeling of emptiness, Guilt, helplessness, hopelessness and for the extreme cases Nothing.
Good News? Your case is NOT helpless you asked why? Glad you did.
" But God has shown us how much he loves us—it was while we were still sinners that Christ died for us!" Romans 5:8
"....... His Love endures forever" Psalms 136
".........the lord is full of compassion and mercy" James 5:10
I have Just 2 reasons why I think you should Not masturbate again, and I'm sorry but I would go hard.
"There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed or hidden that will not be made known" Luke 2:2
"I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do nothing.
But I will show you whom you should fear: fear him who, after killing of the body, has the power to throw you into hell, Yes, I tell you, fear him" Luke 2:4
So How should be done to battle the addiction?
"They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. Sanctify them by the truth; Your word is truth
For them I sanctify myself, that they too may be truly sanctified" John 17:16-17 & 19
Read the Bible.
"What the Law could not do, because human nature was weak, God did. He condemned sin in human nature by sending his own Son, who came with a nature like our sinful nature, to do away with sin
God did this so that the righteous demands of the Law might be fully satisfied in us who live according to the Spirit, and not according to human nature
You however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the spirit, if the spirit of God lives in you, and if anyone does not have the spirit of christ, he doesn't belong to christ." Romans 8: 3-4 &9
Let the Spirit help.
You don't think you can?
"In all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. Romans 8:37
You can beat this addiction through Christ, I believe in you.
If you are still reading this to this point there is a reason, use the comment box and let me know if you are struggling with this or any other addiction and think this can help or you know someone, ofcourse you can comment anonymously.
Thanks for sticking around!
Dec 30, 2012
Soul-Connect
This time? The words fly me to where I feel.
The deep longing fills the void.
The deep longing left me asking for more.
Standing beside the "farmer shoes", eyes lost in yours.
The eyes are the mirror to the soul I capture
The eyes revealed the words, the one from the books.
Sucked me in, just like the words. The words of the book.
In 5 seconds I read it all, every word of your eye-book.
The depth of the deep longing shortened.
I Lied, when she asked me "what do you feel?"
I can't lie forever, my reading eyes tells the tale, my tale. But would you read?
You pulled my shirt off, exposed my skin to yours.
Our palms met, the fingers that traced the words of the books. They met.
Intertwined fingers produce words, words.
The words the fingers felt, feels them now.
The trickle of sweat from our longing bodies mix, they feel the words of the books, skin to skin, eye to eye, they write. Their words. Their Language. In a book.
Only understood by fingers that felt, by skin that wrote, by the eyes that traced.
The deep longing, the feel of the eyes, the words of the skin, the trace of the sweat, the tangle of the fingers and the other ONE that know it all, the other ONE that knows the language, the other ONE that understands the soul connect!
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This was inspired after reading "the bridges of madison county" tonight. Felt good writing it, hope you enjoyed it? And what do you think?
I also hear you can only genuinely feel this way about someone once in a lifetime. How true? What do you believe?
P.S: I had my video ready but the internet expired for the year x__x so sorrrrrrrrry! Am I forgiven? *puppy eyes* :)
Dec 27, 2012
Drained
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I'm sorry this is a bit gloomy for this season but this is based on a true-life story and i just wanted to get it all out there before the year is over. Yes, this is my story and i'm the one on the hospital bed and NO this aint a pity party, this is a way of getting to see things from her perspective because i've asked alot recently why someone would want to harm a small child but i came up with nothing and after listening to a sermon from a former witch and she says when people do things that they wont normally do its because there is a force behind it, and yesterday it just came to me to write about it and my sisters would know how touchy i have been since last night when i started, but now? i have more clarity and i'm ready to let it go.
Its the end of the year and i want to drop whatever baggage is droppable, although there are not much but then, before i started writing this i had no idea i would feel this good after, but i Thank God for laying in my heart to write this.
You know what i learnt to help me forgive easily? Take the walk in their shoes, try and see it from the person's perspective, and know their story and it would even help us to judge people less - I know its helping me!
I would record my video today and bring you some smiles before the end of the year!
Have a wonderful end of 2012
Dec 23, 2012
Walks to Remember..
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| call me daddy's little girl :) |
Dec 17, 2012
What you deserve.
Clueless, misunderstood, void, with love and gratitude i started the year, it would always be a significant year and those moments in one's life that changes you happened this year.
11-4-12, 29-7-13, 11-11-12, 12-12-12 on these days different things about my life became very clear, i cant go through details of how my year went, not because i can't but i dont really want to cry before the end of this (I know i would) X__X
Anyways, this post is not about me but about the people God used to bring me here.
Firstly, I'm grateful to GOD for counting me worthy to even write this and for humbling me this year, learning through the word daily has been an enormous pleasure, i wont have it another way and i would surrender to you all day, everyday. Thank you Lord.
In no particular order......
Debo Ajayi: This dude right here has answered every of my stupid questions regarding (almost) everything. he has been there for me without judging or excess questions and encourages me to be there for someone else as he is there for me, Thank you for the role you played in my life this 2012. P.S: I wont forget the day at your office, Thanks for your shoulder.
Mosope: I dont know but it seems like roles reversed alittle this year, you were baby and it was such a pleasure and all those talks we have would remain evergreen. I honestly was shocked when you sent me money when NYSC was maltreating us. we've known each other for long and i wont trade us for anything in the world. I Love you, sope even if i dont say it often and btw can you stop calling me your dude? *Rme*
I met and got closer to a few amazing people too...
Kovie: I started following your 31day reset challenge and discovered how much we had in common, Thank you for replying my
Tinu: Its a pleasure knowing more about you, Thank you for always checking on me and for trusting me enough to open up to me, means alot.
Ayomiku: I've known you for a while and you were like a school mummy but when you talk to me it doesnt feel that way and i'm glad i got closer to you and Yes i'm rooting for you 100% (You know what i mean) *winks* Thank you for being there for me.
My lovely sisters: I know i was alot cagey about my feelings this year and i'm sorry. I love you guys so much, through it all you understood to an extent and didn't press further. Thanks for keeping me company through those lonely nights in kontagora, Thank you for laughing at my
Prof Moyosore & Mr Femi: Thank you for speaking to me liek elder brothers and checking up on me from time to time. Meant alot to me, i wont forget. Thank you
Ayo and Tosin: Thank you for always having my back, i know i didnt open up at all but when i think of the fact that i know that you guys are there, it brings a smile to my face. Thanks alot.
Mr Dele: Thank you so much, like really. I def wont forget that you were there for me through the lonely days in kontagora and listening to my
Sammy: Despite the circumstances that made us closer, its been a pleasure knowing you, all 100 of you -____- or is it 200? i lost count >_> if i'm counting people to disturb now i can put you on first 5 :p Thank You ''sweetie'' :p
Olasunkanmi: Regardless of the time difference, you'ld respond to my chats, Thank you and its a pleasure getting to know you better.
My Twin Brother: I didn't see you alot this year, but the little time we spent together was awesome. Thanks for not making my birthday this year suck! Love you dear. keep repping us.
Lekan, Esther & Adeoti: Thank you for being such wonderful friends to me. *muah*
Imisioluwa: Regardless of what flashcard reality is shoving in my face, you would always mean a great deal to me, you would always be special to me. Thank you for loving me, Thank you for helping me see the need to grow, Thank you for accepting me, Thank you for keeping company those lonely nights in my room, Thank you for taking care of me. you'd always have a place in my heart. I love you...............!
BlogVille: This blog was a huge part of my 2012. Thanks to all my Old and new followers, readers and fellow bloggers, i cant be grateful enough because frankly this blog is nothing without you guys. Thank you for appreciating and encouraging my writing, means alot!
Thanks to all my friends and family members that i came across this year, please forgive me if i didn't mention name, doesn't make you less important to me. I appreciate your love.
I pray 2013 would be a better year for all of us by Gods grace.
*Disclaimer: No tear was shed during the writing of this piece however we cant assure that the eyes were not clouded
Dec 16, 2012
29 Things you should do this year
I read about this Here on femme Lounge around July or so and i wrote it out in my note pad and i want to share the ones i did and my observations
























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